i am wasted but i'm ready
I stopped writing for a while. I was told, once again, that no one understands me. I thought this over, and it seems like you feel this is a bad thing. Truth be told, I don't really want to be understood. The judicious lifestyle is just not for me. So, I apologize that my irrationality is making your life complicated, I just hope you understand that it's not going to change for you.
I've become immune to minor emotion. It's all black or white.
Where do you start when you've skipped out on so much? Ben Kweller was amazing in concert. James was an amazing character until he went back to Reno 2 hours later. Gina, Alexandra, Monica and I went on an ALL day canoeing trip which was the highlight of my life...not. at all. seeing as we thought it'd only take us 3 hours max. NOT 9 painful ones. And an old man walked up behind me while i was peeing. That was the highlight of Gina's life. Friday, Julie, Becca, Arielle and I went to the beach. And started drinking at 2. And the party never stopped. Ever. Club Soda was decent. Even if the 'popstar' theme was fabricated just to make the ONLY white girls dress up. We went decked out as cowgirls. We definately didn't stand out. Good thing Julie and Becca didnt come with us. (In that case we would have dressed as B2K.) and my educational guesses dont think that would've been too smooth. I have an incredible soul mate who doesnt like zucchini either. And he brings me gummy bears. That, my friends is special... I miss my boybestfriend more than anything. In fact, when he sends me pictures I start crying. Speaking of crying, I've been doing that a lot lately. Especially around miss Julie Tursi (whose brother and I are officially dating now that I will be sleeping in his shorts. Every flipping night. Ok. I'm totally kidding. Maybe?) I'm just overwhelmed with feelings i havent felt in a long time. But, Everett's driving to San Francisco this weekend. That makes me tres excite'. But for right now, I'm sick. And it blows.
I don't know why boys put up with girls that break their hearts more than once, but, sometimes, im so glad they do.
PS- your problems will still be there when you sober up. my main problem is that you are not stupid. You are smart enough to know right, wrong, and the difference between them. anything in your life that has the power to make you think life sucks is your master and you are its slave.
Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me
Do it in my van every Sunday
She tells him she's in church but she doesn't go
Still she's on her knees and Scotty doesn't know
now i get to go look at stars. naked. aka, without a telescope.