Aug 08, 2005 22:33
I can't stop thinking.
Thinking is ruining me at the moment. I'm thinking about everything from androgen insensitivity syndrome to if alexander the great really did have a part in the death of his father.
I have this issue about not knowing that kills me. I can't stand to not know. Lack of closure on decisions, on feelings or any other social/personal situations. I think all during the day.. i think before i sleep, i think even when i wake up... some girls are so bad i even think through them. that reminds me... i loathe dumb people. not retards, just normal people, who are really dumb. I'm not talking about remembering why the mongols never conquered europe, but just the ability to function in a conversation. In case you didn't clue on to it, that last sentence had a very misogynistic undertone to it. Some girls are just so boring i just think about other things, like gyroscopes... they are wonderful! they help send rockets to blow you up! But anyway, i think so much i can't even focus on points. I cant even remember what this topic was about.. i should not rant and proof read like my grade 2-3 teachers used to say, but fuck that, i rule. If anyone watches House, I think I am either going to run out in front of a car in like 10 years time so i can get a walking stick and be able to slag the fuck out of anyone that i meet because.. because.. because of the wonderful things he does.. dun-dun-dun-dun-dun-dundun..., or find a nice girl and settle down.. nah bitter old fuck sounds so much more better... id even have a video camera strapped to my head, so i could star in the big brother equivalent of House. I swear i'm going to kill gretel killeen... someone replace her with the talking tuckerbag that used to do adds for tuckerbag.. or at least gag her and have guys turkey slapping her while she evicts another loser.
work... heheehe.. good old work. I have taken an offer from another SME, for a net salary increase of $xx,yyy.. however i think my current employer wants to put 5k on top of that to retain me, which would mean a pay increase that is 2 times as much as what i earnt per annum in uni working in clints (i used to make a decent buck in uni too.. money mark!)...i feel so lucky to get this far.. i thought people who change the world do so in a revolutionary fashion.. but its not.. they carve a niche in the revolution at the time. i think i can redefine my industry in my life time, and im going to fuck that brazillian girl at my work to do so. well not really.. i swear i thought she was french.. either way i am always secretly wishing for a topless conga line to walk past her desk, just to see if she'll get up and dance with them...
i miss not cooking... bloody mum cooks everything.. but thats ok she is good at it.
i went to a party in north melb on saturday... about 20 of us left and wandered the pubs, and we chanced on a party at the castle hotel for 2 young twin lads 21st which we decided to gatecrash (great food!). What great timing we showed to rock up just as the stripper was starting. win win people.
that said, i am trying to suppress everything i feel towards this awesome girl i have been privileged enough to have hung out with lately. she just rocks my world.. i dont think ive really liked anyone in about 3-4 years that much but man.. shes the most complete person ive met in a long time...but a) because she is so good she can do way better than me b) shes way too good looking c) repeat a and b x infinity.... oh and most importantly.. i havent ever had the need to zone out and think of gyroscopes whenever we talk.
why the fuck am i even updating this thing? oh thats right, you want other people to know you are cool man.. fucking homos.. ill kill you all.