Update...answers...
So the last few days have just been really long. Things aren't exactly better, but at least they aren't really questionable now.
Sunday night after my mom and I had both worked 8 hours each we drove to Atlantic City to be with my Grandparents. We got there about 2:30 am and after barely sleeping went to a doctors appointment at 9 am. So it turns out the tests were right, my Bubbie has cancer again. She was diagnosed with ovarian cancer a year and a half ago and has been cancer free for the past six months. Now unfortunately it has spread and she has spots on her liver and in her abdomen. She needs to start chemo again immmediately, starting Monday morning. It is so hard seeing her like this, she randomly breaks out in tears and even asked the doctor how long she will live. Thankfully he is hopeful and yes, eventually she will die of cancer but it doesn't look like it will be any time soon. Things were finally looking up for her, she was feeling good and getting back to normal then everything has to happen again. She broke her arm a couple weeks ago and had to have a metal rod put in and now this.
On top of that my Zayde went to the doctor today and found out he has precancerous cells in his tongue. He needs surgery ASAP. I guess that is the least of our problems because it is not too serious. Yes, he needs the surgery but the way the doctor was talking we expected it to be alot worse. Thankfully he will still be somewhat healthy and able to help with everything else.
On top of that, everything with my Grandmom is still up in the air. She is out of the hospital but she still has a healing broken hip with 3 pins in it and cancer in her colon, lungs, bones, and who knows where else. She is practically confined to her bed and has finally agreed to sell her big house, but since she waited so long there are no openings in assisted living homes and she hates having to rely on other people. She still refuses to give up the car too, so no help for me out of all this either. She landed herself in the ER again last week, but apparently nothing major was wrong and they sent her home again. Just the surgery combined with the radiation is not affecting her well.
As for me, I am just trying to keep my head on straight. I keep telling myself everything will work out ok and my grandparents will live to see everything. My sister graduating from college next year, me graduating in three years, us both getting married and having children. It is bad enough my Grandfather died so early, he didn't get to see us at all, or even see my parents married. He died just 28 days before the wedding. They have all outlived their families by alot and they need to survive to see everything they have always wanted to.
I am just trying to stay busy and not worry. Work helps, when they actually give me hours. This week and next they screwed me with only 3 and 2 days, but I expect them to call me in every once in a while. Plans to have fun are working out more and more. We got a hotel room for Live 8 (yayy!) so I will be in the city for that and the concerts on the 4th. Anyone going? Let me know, we will meet up! At the end of the July me and Greg are going to Boston for a few days too. Much needed road trip! I got to hit the beach yesterday and hopefully a few more days off in conjunction with other people will actually get my tan up to par.
Today I got news about my house at Bard. I HOPEFULLY am getting a bigger one...where I get to have my own bedroom. If this does not work out I am going to flip out. We will see.
Quote of the week...seems to fit everything, "Just take everything one day at a time."
Sunday night after my mom and I had both worked 8 hours each we drove to Atlantic City to be with my Grandparents. We got there about 2:30 am and after barely sleeping went to a doctors appointment at 9 am. So it turns out the tests were right, my Bubbie has cancer again. She was diagnosed with ovarian cancer a year and a half ago and has been cancer free for the past six months. Now unfortunately it has spread and she has spots on her liver and in her abdomen. She needs to start chemo again immmediately, starting Monday morning. It is so hard seeing her like this, she randomly breaks out in tears and even asked the doctor how long she will live. Thankfully he is hopeful and yes, eventually she will die of cancer but it doesn't look like it will be any time soon. Things were finally looking up for her, she was feeling good and getting back to normal then everything has to happen again. She broke her arm a couple weeks ago and had to have a metal rod put in and now this.
On top of that my Zayde went to the doctor today and found out he has precancerous cells in his tongue. He needs surgery ASAP. I guess that is the least of our problems because it is not too serious. Yes, he needs the surgery but the way the doctor was talking we expected it to be alot worse. Thankfully he will still be somewhat healthy and able to help with everything else.
On top of that, everything with my Grandmom is still up in the air. She is out of the hospital but she still has a healing broken hip with 3 pins in it and cancer in her colon, lungs, bones, and who knows where else. She is practically confined to her bed and has finally agreed to sell her big house, but since she waited so long there are no openings in assisted living homes and she hates having to rely on other people. She still refuses to give up the car too, so no help for me out of all this either. She landed herself in the ER again last week, but apparently nothing major was wrong and they sent her home again. Just the surgery combined with the radiation is not affecting her well.
As for me, I am just trying to keep my head on straight. I keep telling myself everything will work out ok and my grandparents will live to see everything. My sister graduating from college next year, me graduating in three years, us both getting married and having children. It is bad enough my Grandfather died so early, he didn't get to see us at all, or even see my parents married. He died just 28 days before the wedding. They have all outlived their families by alot and they need to survive to see everything they have always wanted to.
I am just trying to stay busy and not worry. Work helps, when they actually give me hours. This week and next they screwed me with only 3 and 2 days, but I expect them to call me in every once in a while. Plans to have fun are working out more and more. We got a hotel room for Live 8 (yayy!) so I will be in the city for that and the concerts on the 4th. Anyone going? Let me know, we will meet up! At the end of the July me and Greg are going to Boston for a few days too. Much needed road trip! I got to hit the beach yesterday and hopefully a few more days off in conjunction with other people will actually get my tan up to par.
Today I got news about my house at Bard. I HOPEFULLY am getting a bigger one...where I get to have my own bedroom. If this does not work out I am going to flip out. We will see.
Quote of the week...seems to fit everything, "Just take everything one day at a time."