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okay.. so last wks def. sucked a big one. i got caught havin a party last friday, then monicas mom said we couldnt see each other nemore. thats so hard to hear cuz i love her family more then nething.. theyve been there for me thru soo much shit that no one else even knows about. its crazy.. i went to talk to her mom twice.. but she wasnt there. then one day i called monicas and her mom answered and i wanted to talk to her but id much rather talk to her to her face cuz i think thats more respectful.. dont u?
well then trav broke up with me thru. i tried to act like shit didnt phase me.. inside it drove me crazzzy! lol i acted like it didnt mean shit cuz i wanted him to make a decision of whether he wanted to get back with me based on what he feels.. not because im crying and im upset and he feels bad for me. i want him to do what his heart tells him. i told him if he didnt want to be with me ne more id understand. i would understand.. itd just be hard for me to take. i love him so much. we ended up gettin back together but i need to talk to him because now when he says i love you.. it jus seems so.. different. its like.. the passion is gone.. i dunno.. we have some major talkin to do tmorrow when i get home.
i think the worst thing about this wk was gettin fired from my job. that def. sucked balls.. but oh well. i hated that job newayz.. but it was money that i now dont have. ...whatever...
im at my gmas and its reallllly boring and i wanna go smoke some weed.. but i cant cuz i have none. so tomorrow when i get home im usin the last of my paycheck to buy some reefer and a blunt (hopefully peach or mango.. mm..mm..good BITCHES! lol) then gunna go smoke it with trav and talk about everything. sometimes i dun liek to talk when i smoke tho cuz i forget to say things that i wanna say cuz im too blazed to remeber. lol
travs goin to the club tonite. i was jealous when he was gunna go on thur. nite cuz i didnt want him to do nething with ne other girls. now that were back together i dun care if he goes to the club. if he wants to dance all over girls. then let it be. ill let him have as much fun as he wants cuz its his senior year and i want him to live his life how he wants to live it. im not gunna hold him back from nething cuz if in the future if we broke up . hed look back on his senior yr and remember that naggin bitchy gf he had that never let him do nething and how much fun he coulda had if we hadnt gone out. i jus want him to have a good time. i want to go to the club with him too. he said itd be hard to get me in. but honestly.. i dun think itd be that hard?? hmm.. well have to see. sometimes i jus think that he dun want me to go with him cuz we went to subzero and these guys kept hittin on me and he kept on gettin really jealous. then he said he didnt like goin to the club with me. oh well cuz i liked goin with him cuz i love dancing. even tho i was really trashed that nite and almost fell when we were dancing. it was funny! lol
but hey.. im gunna skaddle n get some shut eye guys! i cant wait to see trav tomorrow.. i love him soo much! ~*sweet dreams everybody*~
well then trav broke up with me thru. i tried to act like shit didnt phase me.. inside it drove me crazzzy! lol i acted like it didnt mean shit cuz i wanted him to make a decision of whether he wanted to get back with me based on what he feels.. not because im crying and im upset and he feels bad for me. i want him to do what his heart tells him. i told him if he didnt want to be with me ne more id understand. i would understand.. itd just be hard for me to take. i love him so much. we ended up gettin back together but i need to talk to him because now when he says i love you.. it jus seems so.. different. its like.. the passion is gone.. i dunno.. we have some major talkin to do tmorrow when i get home.
i think the worst thing about this wk was gettin fired from my job. that def. sucked balls.. but oh well. i hated that job newayz.. but it was money that i now dont have. ...whatever...
im at my gmas and its reallllly boring and i wanna go smoke some weed.. but i cant cuz i have none. so tomorrow when i get home im usin the last of my paycheck to buy some reefer and a blunt (hopefully peach or mango.. mm..mm..good BITCHES! lol) then gunna go smoke it with trav and talk about everything. sometimes i dun liek to talk when i smoke tho cuz i forget to say things that i wanna say cuz im too blazed to remeber. lol
travs goin to the club tonite. i was jealous when he was gunna go on thur. nite cuz i didnt want him to do nething with ne other girls. now that were back together i dun care if he goes to the club. if he wants to dance all over girls. then let it be. ill let him have as much fun as he wants cuz its his senior year and i want him to live his life how he wants to live it. im not gunna hold him back from nething cuz if in the future if we broke up . hed look back on his senior yr and remember that naggin bitchy gf he had that never let him do nething and how much fun he coulda had if we hadnt gone out. i jus want him to have a good time. i want to go to the club with him too. he said itd be hard to get me in. but honestly.. i dun think itd be that hard?? hmm.. well have to see. sometimes i jus think that he dun want me to go with him cuz we went to subzero and these guys kept hittin on me and he kept on gettin really jealous. then he said he didnt like goin to the club with me. oh well cuz i liked goin with him cuz i love dancing. even tho i was really trashed that nite and almost fell when we were dancing. it was funny! lol
but hey.. im gunna skaddle n get some shut eye guys! i cant wait to see trav tomorrow.. i love him soo much! ~*sweet dreams everybody*~