thinking and thanking
MMMM. Thanksgiving. So often the holiday that leaves me in limbo, being not with my family, and usually away from home. But not this year.
I made food and then ate so much of it that I made myself ill. It was pretty ridiculous. I can’t even recall the last time I ate so much it hurt to walk. Yup. But it was great. And the next morning (today that is) I woke up after a rather uncomfortable sleep, at 8 am, and cleaned my parents’ kitchen. Much to their surprise, as well as mine. I’m having a good time, seeing the fam, the brother, and other family of course, but I want to go back to Boston and get started on organizing myself. I had a real useful talk with the parents about my job prospects, interests, etc, and for once I have to be perfectly honest in that they had some really to the point and productive things to say. That I should not continue searching for office jobs as I’m only going to be miserable. Once you’ve had one, you’ve had them all, that the office culture thing is not in me (and this was my mom telling me this, how floored was I) and I should expand my circle of searching, etc. There was hardly anything they said that I did not agree with, and that was pretty amazing. Not that I don’t often times agree with my parents, for I’ve finally started to really take their opinions in stride, and they are smart folks after all, and do happen to have not only good ideas to offer, but also a lot of insight into me as well. Yes. Thank you parents for giving me such good perspective.
I decided I’ve been thinking of doing some media work for a long time now. I’ve been yearning for some involvement in creative process, being part of a production of something tangible, and real, and influential. And I’m gonna push for that more than ever, and not only that, but I decided for the first time in my life that I’m even willing to wait tables for a bit, and that I don’t really have anything against that at this moment. I’ve had them “real” jobs, and you know, I wasn’t too too happy.
So its time for a real change.
Yes. Glad to have shared this. Thoughts are great on their own, but sometimes it helps giving them some substance to take hold and not fade away with the next distraction. So, voila.
LJ is being a total bitch right now. What gives.
Anywho, before I depart for the evening, I’d like to take a little stroll down meme lane….
TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend(s): A girl named Tanya, when my parents and I lived in a communal apartment in St. Petersburg. She wasn’t a terribly good friend though. And a bad influence on me, But she was a good playmate. And that kind of made up for it. I was like 5 at the time, and little Misha wasn’t born yet so I didn’t have many people to play with.
First Screen Name: Glitsora
First Pet: I had a pet butterfly when I was eight. I don’t remember ever giving it a name, She only lived for a few days anyway.
First Piercing: My navel. Cara did it at dance camp for me. It took a really long time and hurt a lot. I was 17 at the time. But it’s beautiful, and the only piercing I still have. So I’ll have it forever.
First Crush: There was this boy Pavel who I walked to school with and ended up kissing in the first grade. He was kinda icky though, and always sang really dirty songs and jokes and such.
First CD: Queen’s Sheer Heart Attack, my dad gave it to me for New Years one year. I still adore it. It may be one of my most favorites to sing along to.
First Enemy: I was in kindergarden, and there was this girl who was my nemesis. She always tried to one-up me, and got my big lead in a holiday play while I was bedridden at home with some germ or other. It was really crushing for me. I was pretty pissed. I don’t remember her name anymore.
First Real Love: Robby
First Stuffed Animal: A stuffed doggy named Chappa. When my grandmother was weaning me off my pacifiers, she threw them away and told me Chappa ate them. I spent a long long time trying to peek down his mouth to find them.
NINE LASTS
Last Alchoholic Beverage: I had some delicious Crème de Cassis during Thanksgiving dinner last night.
Last Car Ride: An hour ago, when Laura brought me home from hanging out in Dover.
Last Movie Seen: Walk the Line with Laura, this evening. Quite good. But drags on.
Last CD Played: Dunno. I play my itunes library a lot these days.
Last Bubble Bath: Ugh. Years. Sadness really. I adored bubble baths.
Last Time You Cried: There were a few stray tears during the talk I had with my parents last night, but nothing drastic.
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: I guess so.
Have you ever been arrested: Nope. But I have been detained by the border patrol enroute to Canada.
Have you ever skinny dipped: Yes. Lovely.
Have you ever been on TV: Yes, when I was little, I think I got on the news once. But the memory is quite faint and don’t remember much of what the occasion was all about.
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Yup. There have been a handful of those. I can think of three off the top of my head. But it’s probably about half a dozen in all, to be honest.
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: Absolutely.
Have you ever cheated: Not really
SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
Shoot, there are not seven things. I’m wearing my mom’s old cottony bathrobe with yellow, brown and yellow stripes, knee-length tan socks, a light green tank top, and dark gray underwear. See, that’s only four things. Sorry! It’s nearly bedtime.
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
Other than what’s listed in the entry… I read the 4th Thomas Covenant book(one), went clothes shopping for Misha at the Fox Run(two), ate a delicious piece of forbidden bread(three), took a nap(four), watched most of Close Encounters of the Third Kind that was playing on AMC(five), set up an appointment with a temp agency for next week, (six).
FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
Not scratching, cuddles, flowers, peacock feathers, chocolate candies.
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO
Larry, Judith, Masha, Laura (both!)
THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: Black
2. Hot or Cold: Hold
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
TWO ASPIRATIONS
Independent documentary or music producer
Drug policy reformer
ONE THING YOU REGRET
Has to do with a boy. Who went on to hate/love me for years. You know who. Ugh.
Did you enjoy that? Huh?
I made food and then ate so much of it that I made myself ill. It was pretty ridiculous. I can’t even recall the last time I ate so much it hurt to walk. Yup. But it was great. And the next morning (today that is) I woke up after a rather uncomfortable sleep, at 8 am, and cleaned my parents’ kitchen. Much to their surprise, as well as mine. I’m having a good time, seeing the fam, the brother, and other family of course, but I want to go back to Boston and get started on organizing myself. I had a real useful talk with the parents about my job prospects, interests, etc, and for once I have to be perfectly honest in that they had some really to the point and productive things to say. That I should not continue searching for office jobs as I’m only going to be miserable. Once you’ve had one, you’ve had them all, that the office culture thing is not in me (and this was my mom telling me this, how floored was I) and I should expand my circle of searching, etc. There was hardly anything they said that I did not agree with, and that was pretty amazing. Not that I don’t often times agree with my parents, for I’ve finally started to really take their opinions in stride, and they are smart folks after all, and do happen to have not only good ideas to offer, but also a lot of insight into me as well. Yes. Thank you parents for giving me such good perspective.
I decided I’ve been thinking of doing some media work for a long time now. I’ve been yearning for some involvement in creative process, being part of a production of something tangible, and real, and influential. And I’m gonna push for that more than ever, and not only that, but I decided for the first time in my life that I’m even willing to wait tables for a bit, and that I don’t really have anything against that at this moment. I’ve had them “real” jobs, and you know, I wasn’t too too happy.
So its time for a real change.
Yes. Glad to have shared this. Thoughts are great on their own, but sometimes it helps giving them some substance to take hold and not fade away with the next distraction. So, voila.
LJ is being a total bitch right now. What gives.
Anywho, before I depart for the evening, I’d like to take a little stroll down meme lane….
TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend(s): A girl named Tanya, when my parents and I lived in a communal apartment in St. Petersburg. She wasn’t a terribly good friend though. And a bad influence on me, But she was a good playmate. And that kind of made up for it. I was like 5 at the time, and little Misha wasn’t born yet so I didn’t have many people to play with.
First Screen Name: Glitsora
First Pet: I had a pet butterfly when I was eight. I don’t remember ever giving it a name, She only lived for a few days anyway.
First Piercing: My navel. Cara did it at dance camp for me. It took a really long time and hurt a lot. I was 17 at the time. But it’s beautiful, and the only piercing I still have. So I’ll have it forever.
First Crush: There was this boy Pavel who I walked to school with and ended up kissing in the first grade. He was kinda icky though, and always sang really dirty songs and jokes and such.
First CD: Queen’s Sheer Heart Attack, my dad gave it to me for New Years one year. I still adore it. It may be one of my most favorites to sing along to.
First Enemy: I was in kindergarden, and there was this girl who was my nemesis. She always tried to one-up me, and got my big lead in a holiday play while I was bedridden at home with some germ or other. It was really crushing for me. I was pretty pissed. I don’t remember her name anymore.
First Real Love: Robby
First Stuffed Animal: A stuffed doggy named Chappa. When my grandmother was weaning me off my pacifiers, she threw them away and told me Chappa ate them. I spent a long long time trying to peek down his mouth to find them.
NINE LASTS
Last Alchoholic Beverage: I had some delicious Crème de Cassis during Thanksgiving dinner last night.
Last Car Ride: An hour ago, when Laura brought me home from hanging out in Dover.
Last Movie Seen: Walk the Line with Laura, this evening. Quite good. But drags on.
Last CD Played: Dunno. I play my itunes library a lot these days.
Last Bubble Bath: Ugh. Years. Sadness really. I adored bubble baths.
Last Time You Cried: There were a few stray tears during the talk I had with my parents last night, but nothing drastic.
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: I guess so.
Have you ever been arrested: Nope. But I have been detained by the border patrol enroute to Canada.
Have you ever skinny dipped: Yes. Lovely.
Have you ever been on TV: Yes, when I was little, I think I got on the news once. But the memory is quite faint and don’t remember much of what the occasion was all about.
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Yup. There have been a handful of those. I can think of three off the top of my head. But it’s probably about half a dozen in all, to be honest.
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: Absolutely.
Have you ever cheated: Not really
SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
Shoot, there are not seven things. I’m wearing my mom’s old cottony bathrobe with yellow, brown and yellow stripes, knee-length tan socks, a light green tank top, and dark gray underwear. See, that’s only four things. Sorry! It’s nearly bedtime.
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
Other than what’s listed in the entry… I read the 4th Thomas Covenant book(one), went clothes shopping for Misha at the Fox Run(two), ate a delicious piece of forbidden bread(three), took a nap(four), watched most of Close Encounters of the Third Kind that was playing on AMC(five), set up an appointment with a temp agency for next week, (six).
FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
Not scratching, cuddles, flowers, peacock feathers, chocolate candies.
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO
Larry, Judith, Masha, Laura (both!)
THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: Black
2. Hot or Cold: Hold
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
TWO ASPIRATIONS
Independent documentary or music producer
Drug policy reformer
ONE THING YOU REGRET
Has to do with a boy. Who went on to hate/love me for years. You know who. Ugh.
Did you enjoy that? Huh?