On Weekend Activities and Depression
Friday night we went out to a Nationals game for our friend Kim's birthday. It was a good time, the Nats won which is always nice to see. But the game was over super quickly, which kinda sucked. Whatever, afterwards we went out to U Street, where I had two too many cocktails, then over to Adams Morgan for some karaoke. Definitely felt it the next morning, but it was super fun. Just need to remember that moderation is key.
Saturday, as mentioned, I felt like hell. But we got it together in time to go to the Dance for Water, a fundraiser for the Reel Water Film Festival that the production company is co-sponsoring. It was fun - learned the basic foxtrot step, as well as the "club swing" which is a type of hustle. Also won an item in the silent auction, a tour and tasting for four at Sugarloaf Mountain Vineyard.
Sunday was better, went to yoga at Core Power Bethesda. Spoke to them about doing work for yoga, cause god knows I can't afford the $135/month membership fee, and it looks like I'll be able to start that in a few weeks. Hooray!
Today has been... not good. I don't know if its the weather, or what, but I am crazy depressed and it blows. I didn't go in to Bethesda Green today (though I did work on that stuff from home) and I've basically just sat on the couch. Basically I feel like I'm fucking up with my weight. I gained back like, 4 pounds this week, and now I'm really fucking depressed. And I know its a vicious cycle, cause when I get depressed I want to eat or have a drink, which then makes me feel guilty, etc etc etc. But it is so fucking frustrating to be so damn close to my goal weight and not be able to get there. And I saw a friend's post on Facebook about her incredible work over the last 18 months to get back in shape, and it just made me feel worse. Happy for her. But shitty about how I'm screwing up. And so yeah, basically just sat here on the internet all day, feeling sorry for myself. Great, right?
And that's where I am right now.
Saturday, as mentioned, I felt like hell. But we got it together in time to go to the Dance for Water, a fundraiser for the Reel Water Film Festival that the production company is co-sponsoring. It was fun - learned the basic foxtrot step, as well as the "club swing" which is a type of hustle. Also won an item in the silent auction, a tour and tasting for four at Sugarloaf Mountain Vineyard.
Sunday was better, went to yoga at Core Power Bethesda. Spoke to them about doing work for yoga, cause god knows I can't afford the $135/month membership fee, and it looks like I'll be able to start that in a few weeks. Hooray!
Today has been... not good. I don't know if its the weather, or what, but I am crazy depressed and it blows. I didn't go in to Bethesda Green today (though I did work on that stuff from home) and I've basically just sat on the couch. Basically I feel like I'm fucking up with my weight. I gained back like, 4 pounds this week, and now I'm really fucking depressed. And I know its a vicious cycle, cause when I get depressed I want to eat or have a drink, which then makes me feel guilty, etc etc etc. But it is so fucking frustrating to be so damn close to my goal weight and not be able to get there. And I saw a friend's post on Facebook about her incredible work over the last 18 months to get back in shape, and it just made me feel worse. Happy for her. But shitty about how I'm screwing up. And so yeah, basically just sat here on the internet all day, feeling sorry for myself. Great, right?
And that's where I am right now.