fml
hah, so i've become like....dead. and just, you know, life stuff.
i have so much to rant about right now. i'll make a cut to save you from the horrendousness of it all. 'cause it's gonna be long.
So I'll start off with saying that I've kind of just...poofed from here. For some reason, I was like "no" to fanfic. Bandom. Shit like that. I don't know why, I just...didn't want to read it. I'm back to reading it now...and now that I say that...I might know why. You may understand at the end of my rant.
I haven't gotten any work done on fic. May continue soon. Just..life, you know? Have SOLs this week, so classes have been like "D<" on me. And finals are coming up. May or may not be exempt from all of them. I don't know any more. I was, at least.
So yeah, there's that. Will seriously try and continue work on it, so I can display it for the world. May do a couple one-shots, as well. Again, I don't know.
So...Wednesday I went to a concert. What concert, you may ask. It was a 3 Doors Down, Hinder, Theory of a Deadman, and Black Stone Cherry concert. Amazing, man. Had floor tickets, and a friend saved us a spot [she having gotten there at 2 and us at 4] at the gate, so I was right up there. Amazing. Anyways. yeah.
Saturday was prom for the juniors and seniors at my school. I'm a sophomore, and single, so I couldn't go. Didn't matter, because an unsigned band, Set it Off, that I love was in Lynchburg, which is about an hour away from where I live. So I went to see them. The opening band's music was pretty awesome. But...I don't know about the lyrics or the singer's voice x] the PA system was fucked up, so we couldn't hear them. So then, they let Set it Off [which will be referred to as S!O now] play acoustic.
Well, I had already talked to them before the show and shit, because it was just at this small coffee place. Anyways, I took a seat, and, Cody [the singer and rhythm guitarist] and Dan [keys, though he did the percussion for some reason] played a lot of my favorite songs. So, it was pretty awesome. And I sung every word along with them, which they thought was awesome, as did some of the other people there. I think I was the only person there that actually knew them xD besides, the people of the opening band and shit.
They are seriously amazing guys. They are so nice and so sweet, and fuck, I love them.
Well, after that, Sunday night, is where things went wrong. I was on meebo [not being able to download shit on the laptop] and was logged on AIM, of course. And my friend's status message thing said RIP Gary Lee Griffey. And I was like "WTF???" because I know Gary Griffey. Before I talked to her, I went to the local newspaper's website, and looked in the obituary section. Low and behold....he's dead. So I talked to her, and it turns out he committed suicide. And no one knows the fuck why. He was always happy, always had a smile, always so cheerful. He had that sort of radiant glow that made people want to know him if they didn't already. He was gay. Which sucked, because he is really hot xD I thought him really cute when I first met him, which was last year. So yeah, that's that.
Today was hell. I had a Geometry SOL and fuck. I was able to take it, yeah. The school...you could fucking feel how low people were. I think the only people that didn't give a shit were the stupid fucking preps. They were all giggling and shit and being the self-centered bitches and bastards they are. Anyways. And, it turns out, it happened Saturday. On one of the best nights this year. And apparently, at prom, a lot of people were like "well, we can't let it ruin our night" which sucks fucking dick.
After the SOL was over, it was 2nd period. Well...my 2nd period is at a different school, where I take art. So I didn't have anything to do. I headed to the cafeteria, where I met up with two of my friends, one of which goes to that same different school at the same time, though she takes a different class there. We went to a class so that the other friend could get a pass to go to the career center, where they were having counselling because of it. And one of my other friends were in there, and she had just found out.
Eight of us skipped the day after that, and went to one friend's house and ate and shit, and just kinda...goofed a bit. Which was good for one of my friends, 'cause she had been all silent and shit, not eating, not talking, and I was fucking worried about her. Anyways. That's why I'm not sure if I'm still exempt or not. Because I skipped the day. Albeit, with permission, but it's probably unexcused and shit, so. /: But really..I think it's worth it. I don't know if I would have been able to survive the day, especially with the amount of preps in some of the classes...especially Biology. Blah.
And right now...I really don't know what I can do with myself. I'm sad, but not crying. I can't cry, no matter how much I want to at the moment. I'm just kind of...blah, you know? What sucks is that tomorrow, an odd day, is when I go to my friend's history class after mine. Not to stay, but to talk, you know, friends and shit. I don't think I'll be able to go in there tomorrow....because he had that history class. Fucking sucks. Hoppefully, I'll be able to get through the day tomorrow. Don't have an SOL at least.
RIP Gary Lee Griffey III <33333
so yeah. fuck my life. severely. just fuck it.
--wolf