not really coherent. choppy entry.
i think it's getting to the point where i'm getting in too deep. i mean, crushes always tend to do that, but this one is awfully quick...it's really fun though...
we went on a proper gay date last night...i mean i guess it wasn't really a proper date because there was someone else there, but i bought her a rose and she paid my admission...
and then we came back and ran into avory and emily at the bp buying beer so we hung out with them...drinking and stuff...then we decided to go to white castle...after eating, we had to go back to hill to give boogie and eddie their "food"...i was drained so i decided to leave...at first she just said bye..but as i got to the bottom of the stairs, she came out and we kissed goodnight...in the hallway. that hallway has become the hottest spot on campus.
i like her so much. it's really weird though because we have totally different social circles...(for the most part)...so it makes hanging out a little harder....but all the best things in life are always a little harder i guess.
it's really weird to be hanging out with someone, like in a kinda dating way...i mean, i don't really know what else to call it...we hang out like every day...and we've made out...and she kissed me goodnight...i guess that's what dating is, right?...i've never really dated anyone before...i mean, i've had one serious relationship...but it wasn't like this, i mean, we were hallmates and friends first and then she became interested in me, and so we were in a relationship all of the sudden...there wasn't really this courtship kinda stuff...it was never romantic. for now, let's just call it a crush.
everyday (well for the last week or whatever) i get stressed out about c. ...i mean, i really wanna tell her, i don't wanna be sneaky or hurtful, but what do you do in my situation...i mean here i am in ohio, in my most comfortable place, hooking up with this totally awesome girl and having a fantastic time...and she's pretty much alone in another country without any real friends or whatever, and she can't get in touch with me because i'm never home, and i can't bring myself to respond to her emails...
i don't wanna hurt her. but i will if i have too, because i'm definately not gonna stop whatever this is with j.
why can't things be simple for once.
we went on a proper gay date last night...i mean i guess it wasn't really a proper date because there was someone else there, but i bought her a rose and she paid my admission...
and then we came back and ran into avory and emily at the bp buying beer so we hung out with them...drinking and stuff...then we decided to go to white castle...after eating, we had to go back to hill to give boogie and eddie their "food"...i was drained so i decided to leave...at first she just said bye..but as i got to the bottom of the stairs, she came out and we kissed goodnight...in the hallway. that hallway has become the hottest spot on campus.
i like her so much. it's really weird though because we have totally different social circles...(for the most part)...so it makes hanging out a little harder....but all the best things in life are always a little harder i guess.
it's really weird to be hanging out with someone, like in a kinda dating way...i mean, i don't really know what else to call it...we hang out like every day...and we've made out...and she kissed me goodnight...i guess that's what dating is, right?...i've never really dated anyone before...i mean, i've had one serious relationship...but it wasn't like this, i mean, we were hallmates and friends first and then she became interested in me, and so we were in a relationship all of the sudden...there wasn't really this courtship kinda stuff...it was never romantic. for now, let's just call it a crush.
everyday (well for the last week or whatever) i get stressed out about c. ...i mean, i really wanna tell her, i don't wanna be sneaky or hurtful, but what do you do in my situation...i mean here i am in ohio, in my most comfortable place, hooking up with this totally awesome girl and having a fantastic time...and she's pretty much alone in another country without any real friends or whatever, and she can't get in touch with me because i'm never home, and i can't bring myself to respond to her emails...
i don't wanna hurt her. but i will if i have too, because i'm definately not gonna stop whatever this is with j.
why can't things be simple for once.