what are the odds.
so while i relish in the idea of living in dc next summer, and all the summers that may come after that forever.. it scares me half to death (twice) to realize that july will be my last full month in new jersey.
unbelievable. the idea of picking up and moving out has always been so appealing to me. i tend to be the type to always be looking for the next best thing. i like to outdo myself. however, the reality of sweating off the july heat 200 miles from where i'd spent nineteen summers before that... is ever-present.
i'm not pulling that "i'm never going back to new jersey" card. i love where i come from, and i'm not about to ignore that part of me. everyone i love is here. yet, everything i'm looking towards is out there. my aspirations are outside the borders of this state. part of me believes that those aspirations are outside of this country. how's that for a reality? while i know where my heart is, by next year, i'm going to have to take care of things like internships and summer classes. things i can't do in jersey. or in new york city.
naturally i'll be home to visit. my schedule probably won't be as restrictive as me taking 17 credits as it was during the fall and spring semesters. of course i'll come up for the fourth of july and all those important celebrations that we all share. i'll be home inbetween summer sessions, and for time that i can spend with my family. hopefully by then i'll probably be living in an apartment in the berks or something, and, of course, my door will ALWAYS be open for visitors. it's only a train ride away.
and i do have now to spend in jersey. granted, i'm spending about 50 hours a week at work, but there are plenty of other waking hours through my weeks and i'm not going to lie, it's been quite a ride. the fourth is coming up in eight days [!!!], and i'm excited that tessa, josh, and josh are coming up to partake in all the festivities.
for now i need some sleep. i'm tired, and i have work tomorrow afternoon, and plenty to do in the morning.
"my days are brighter than my property and what i have and what it lacks to me."
unbelievable. the idea of picking up and moving out has always been so appealing to me. i tend to be the type to always be looking for the next best thing. i like to outdo myself. however, the reality of sweating off the july heat 200 miles from where i'd spent nineteen summers before that... is ever-present.
i'm not pulling that "i'm never going back to new jersey" card. i love where i come from, and i'm not about to ignore that part of me. everyone i love is here. yet, everything i'm looking towards is out there. my aspirations are outside the borders of this state. part of me believes that those aspirations are outside of this country. how's that for a reality? while i know where my heart is, by next year, i'm going to have to take care of things like internships and summer classes. things i can't do in jersey. or in new york city.
naturally i'll be home to visit. my schedule probably won't be as restrictive as me taking 17 credits as it was during the fall and spring semesters. of course i'll come up for the fourth of july and all those important celebrations that we all share. i'll be home inbetween summer sessions, and for time that i can spend with my family. hopefully by then i'll probably be living in an apartment in the berks or something, and, of course, my door will ALWAYS be open for visitors. it's only a train ride away.
and i do have now to spend in jersey. granted, i'm spending about 50 hours a week at work, but there are plenty of other waking hours through my weeks and i'm not going to lie, it's been quite a ride. the fourth is coming up in eight days [!!!], and i'm excited that tessa, josh, and josh are coming up to partake in all the festivities.
for now i need some sleep. i'm tired, and i have work tomorrow afternoon, and plenty to do in the morning.
"my days are brighter than my property and what i have and what it lacks to me."