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I dont know what it is but I have been writing a lot. Tons of things have been going on and I have found contentment in sitting down with paper and pen and letting it all out. I am in the sharing mood and although some of these I label as personal.. I am willing to share! I would like feedback! So.. uh.. enjoy?
*Sorry for all the spelling mistakes! I am too lazy to spell check! lol
ENTER THE MIND OF LAUREN..
Tomrrow your sarrowful infatuations will become desolate to human temptation
And the update of the emotional rider prevails
May the foundation of disdain no longer fall into the fingers of our children
In hopes that everyone one day sees the disaffection in each other
And turns it into pure prefection
Misleading and wonder
Hope and Dispair
Minds, bodies, and souls being exposed
A father, in keeping the peace
has a silent wisdon that remains unseen
A mother, with a heart of charity
allows her harsh words to ring in the ears of those she loves
A sibling, confused in her own skin
unwilling to learn and grow
The misunderstood, feeling trapped within the boundries of her home
with the harsh words and confusion
Wanting to be free and independant from the burden
She grows
Close your eyes and dream again
The angelic canvis of a divine youth
Breathtaking and unexpected
His cunning divotion and fraternal mind set draws me in
The poetic flaw of his talents and effortless
and excel behond the highest star
He shines for all to see
But is never boastful nor pompus
Unaware of his ambition and effect on others
He's flawless
Open your eyes
Is there such a human being?
My heart though only 17 years is crushed
I've taken on more then I can handle
I feel so small, so useless
Why do I allow my feelings to be so free?
The fact of the matter is
People are ugly
Always worrying about themselves and their own well being
It may sound cleche
but take a walk in my shoes
try them on for size
I dare you!
I garentie you won't leave my shoes with dry eyes
The one whom holds the immaculate rapture
Silently holds the undesirable dolor
The dainty words of faith and hope settle in the ears of the meek adolesient
In their prayer they profess their pureness
Almost as if they are untouched
The feeling of forlorn exits their hreats
and is now fullfilled with feelings of joy
No longer will the melancholy prevail
And no longer will the adolesient fade
As I lay there exposed and artful
I will let you unveil me
Scared of what you may think
I hold my breath
Rocked silent in a soft lullaby you make me feel at home with your heart
I had never felt so safe, so loved
Even with my rough edges and feeble mind you allow me to be myself
At birth we are given scars along tender heart liberties
And your heart has proven to be one of a kind in my eyes
I know this because I did not blink once while examining it
This is me defenseless and free
Do not write this in that diary you so rightfully abuse
I would rather you take it out on me
I want to understand your weary thoughts and mature lifestyle
My mind is open
So take advantage of it
As I sit here in faithlessness
I close my eyes to reflect on the immeasurable disclosure
Feeling abandoned and manic I fight my tears
Obscure thoughts flow through my mind
The proof of dishonor to my physicality
The vast mistrust sculpted into my heart
Most of all the love I no longer feel
Apprehensive of where I will end up
I stay mute
For once I am speechless
Wanting to release the thoughts of my diminishing faith
Isolated from the relationships I should be exsperoencing
The feelings of being friendless and lonesome come into play
Hurting on the inside and out
I maintain a strong structure
The uncertainty of others reactions trusts me into a state of dismay
Wanting so much to be someone else
To live another life
To exsperience unblemished situations
I cry
Tap, Tap, Tap
Youe hear that?
The pulse
The expression of the opus
Is an astry murmer of the beat
The scream is internal
And external is the hum
Drawing everyone in with the sound
I look out behond the bright lights
Cheers and words sung by all in the tune of one voice fill my ears
I am in a state of fame
Something I have never known the feeling of
Nor ever thought would conqor my shyness
The music plays on
And I sing
Thats all folks..
*Sorry for all the spelling mistakes! I am too lazy to spell check! lol
ENTER THE MIND OF LAUREN..
Tomrrow your sarrowful infatuations will become desolate to human temptation
And the update of the emotional rider prevails
May the foundation of disdain no longer fall into the fingers of our children
In hopes that everyone one day sees the disaffection in each other
And turns it into pure prefection
Misleading and wonder
Hope and Dispair
Minds, bodies, and souls being exposed
A father, in keeping the peace
has a silent wisdon that remains unseen
A mother, with a heart of charity
allows her harsh words to ring in the ears of those she loves
A sibling, confused in her own skin
unwilling to learn and grow
The misunderstood, feeling trapped within the boundries of her home
with the harsh words and confusion
Wanting to be free and independant from the burden
She grows
Close your eyes and dream again
The angelic canvis of a divine youth
Breathtaking and unexpected
His cunning divotion and fraternal mind set draws me in
The poetic flaw of his talents and effortless
and excel behond the highest star
He shines for all to see
But is never boastful nor pompus
Unaware of his ambition and effect on others
He's flawless
Open your eyes
Is there such a human being?
My heart though only 17 years is crushed
I've taken on more then I can handle
I feel so small, so useless
Why do I allow my feelings to be so free?
The fact of the matter is
People are ugly
Always worrying about themselves and their own well being
It may sound cleche
but take a walk in my shoes
try them on for size
I dare you!
I garentie you won't leave my shoes with dry eyes
The one whom holds the immaculate rapture
Silently holds the undesirable dolor
The dainty words of faith and hope settle in the ears of the meek adolesient
In their prayer they profess their pureness
Almost as if they are untouched
The feeling of forlorn exits their hreats
and is now fullfilled with feelings of joy
No longer will the melancholy prevail
And no longer will the adolesient fade
As I lay there exposed and artful
I will let you unveil me
Scared of what you may think
I hold my breath
Rocked silent in a soft lullaby you make me feel at home with your heart
I had never felt so safe, so loved
Even with my rough edges and feeble mind you allow me to be myself
At birth we are given scars along tender heart liberties
And your heart has proven to be one of a kind in my eyes
I know this because I did not blink once while examining it
This is me defenseless and free
Do not write this in that diary you so rightfully abuse
I would rather you take it out on me
I want to understand your weary thoughts and mature lifestyle
My mind is open
So take advantage of it
As I sit here in faithlessness
I close my eyes to reflect on the immeasurable disclosure
Feeling abandoned and manic I fight my tears
Obscure thoughts flow through my mind
The proof of dishonor to my physicality
The vast mistrust sculpted into my heart
Most of all the love I no longer feel
Apprehensive of where I will end up
I stay mute
For once I am speechless
Wanting to release the thoughts of my diminishing faith
Isolated from the relationships I should be exsperoencing
The feelings of being friendless and lonesome come into play
Hurting on the inside and out
I maintain a strong structure
The uncertainty of others reactions trusts me into a state of dismay
Wanting so much to be someone else
To live another life
To exsperience unblemished situations
I cry
Tap, Tap, Tap
Youe hear that?
The pulse
The expression of the opus
Is an astry murmer of the beat
The scream is internal
And external is the hum
Drawing everyone in with the sound
I look out behond the bright lights
Cheers and words sung by all in the tune of one voice fill my ears
I am in a state of fame
Something I have never known the feeling of
Nor ever thought would conqor my shyness
The music plays on
And I sing
Thats all folks..