Entry Thirty Seven [Private | Hackable]
Those posters the Captain is so upset about...
I wonder, is she really looking for that boy? I doubt she'd be so upset if there were no truth to it. Is he her brother? Has he been missing long? She's very private, I could never ask her about it...
It makes me think of home, and I don't know that I want to do that. When I left, it was because I felt like I didn't belong there. I was troublesome to my siblings. We didn't understand each other. It took me a long time to realize that they cared about me... and by then... I couldn't go back. I can't go back there now. That life was easier, but it wasn't what I wanted. I would never give up what I have now. It means too much to me.
But I don't think I was fair to them. I didn't want to be brought back, so I just disappeared. What did they think happened? Did they look for me? Did they post fliers, like that one? It's been nine years... do they think I'm dead? Did it make them sad?
I wish I could make it better, somehow. Or at least know that they're okay. I don't want to go home... but I wish I could know that I didn't hurt them. I wish I could know that they're happy.
I wonder, is she really looking for that boy? I doubt she'd be so upset if there were no truth to it. Is he her brother? Has he been missing long? She's very private, I could never ask her about it...
It makes me think of home, and I don't know that I want to do that. When I left, it was because I felt like I didn't belong there. I was troublesome to my siblings. We didn't understand each other. It took me a long time to realize that they cared about me... and by then... I couldn't go back. I can't go back there now. That life was easier, but it wasn't what I wanted. I would never give up what I have now. It means too much to me.
But I don't think I was fair to them. I didn't want to be brought back, so I just disappeared. What did they think happened? Did they look for me? Did they post fliers, like that one? It's been nine years... do they think I'm dead? Did it make them sad?
I wish I could make it better, somehow. Or at least know that they're okay. I don't want to go home... but I wish I could know that I didn't hurt them. I wish I could know that they're happy.