Happy Thanksgiving...weekend I suppose.
It seems as though I have made it through my first real medical situation at school. I know where to go in case of emergency and I won't have to deal with hospitals. I'm lucky I was smart enough to go and see a doctor. Cellulitis is no joke. Although being called gimpy the rest of my life would be an interesting change from spanky. For the alternative universes I suppose.
This weekend has been odd. Certain things have stayed the same like my family and my real friends. Other things have changed. I think the past hit me on the head this weekend and said "hey remember me! I'm gonna bug you for awhile so don't try to distract yourself productively". Maybe not quite like that but close enough.
Thanksgiving day happened to be three years to the day since my mother had passed. My father made sure he pointed that out to me first thing in the morning. I don't know what it is but lately I've been thinking about her alot and missing her. It's a tough thing to lose someone so close and who suffered along side you. She was the best. A real human being. If only she could see how I've come along.
The night before I decided it would be a good idea for me and Bob to go out and get Bob drunk. Mostly because it's an interesting night when bob gets drunk and makes a fool out of himself. I have to have fun somehow. On our adventure we ended up in a bar where I believe every member of my high school graduating class was there plus the old crew I used to hang out with during stage crew. One thing I didn't realize is that most of the guys I used to hang out with were really gay. Sure it's easy to say it's the alchohol but I felt very uncomfortable when an old friend hugged me and then left his hands on my neck as if he were going to kiss me. Then of course I got noticed by people who I had hoped would reconize me. I get roped into a conversation and lo and behold he gives me his number and plans on calling me soon to hang out in Brooklyn. I want nothing to do with these people! I've moved on! Oh well...such is life. Maybe I'll get a free concert out of it or something.
An unfortunate thing has happened to me this weekend that doesn't involve my body but more my mind. I can't get Gina out of my head. I miss her terribly. The good news is she isn't pushing me to be really close with her like Kaitlyn did, but her presence drives me mad sometimes. I don't understand it. I glorify the relationship and trick myself into believing it was good, and it was for the time. I have no regrets. In the end however the conclusion is always the same, she stopped liking me. Even with that in mind, all I would like to do is see her. I have to remember to avoid Cold Spring for awhile.
I am thankful for whoever reads through this dribble. You have more patience then I do.
This weekend has been odd. Certain things have stayed the same like my family and my real friends. Other things have changed. I think the past hit me on the head this weekend and said "hey remember me! I'm gonna bug you for awhile so don't try to distract yourself productively". Maybe not quite like that but close enough.
Thanksgiving day happened to be three years to the day since my mother had passed. My father made sure he pointed that out to me first thing in the morning. I don't know what it is but lately I've been thinking about her alot and missing her. It's a tough thing to lose someone so close and who suffered along side you. She was the best. A real human being. If only she could see how I've come along.
The night before I decided it would be a good idea for me and Bob to go out and get Bob drunk. Mostly because it's an interesting night when bob gets drunk and makes a fool out of himself. I have to have fun somehow. On our adventure we ended up in a bar where I believe every member of my high school graduating class was there plus the old crew I used to hang out with during stage crew. One thing I didn't realize is that most of the guys I used to hang out with were really gay. Sure it's easy to say it's the alchohol but I felt very uncomfortable when an old friend hugged me and then left his hands on my neck as if he were going to kiss me. Then of course I got noticed by people who I had hoped would reconize me. I get roped into a conversation and lo and behold he gives me his number and plans on calling me soon to hang out in Brooklyn. I want nothing to do with these people! I've moved on! Oh well...such is life. Maybe I'll get a free concert out of it or something.
An unfortunate thing has happened to me this weekend that doesn't involve my body but more my mind. I can't get Gina out of my head. I miss her terribly. The good news is she isn't pushing me to be really close with her like Kaitlyn did, but her presence drives me mad sometimes. I don't understand it. I glorify the relationship and trick myself into believing it was good, and it was for the time. I have no regrets. In the end however the conclusion is always the same, she stopped liking me. Even with that in mind, all I would like to do is see her. I have to remember to avoid Cold Spring for awhile.
I am thankful for whoever reads through this dribble. You have more patience then I do.