Ground control to major Tom.....
Goddamnit why do thoughts of death now scare the hell out of me?
It's times like these I really wish I still believed in religion. At least there's some comfort in some sort of afterlife. Science basically says when you die your entire being is completely gone forever, and the chances of your atoms comming back together in the same sort of combination are impossible. I mean there is a chance that maybe some of your atoms will be part of a living being again but everything that makes up me, my personality my looks, everything will be lost as soon as I am dead. That scares the hell out of me. I like who I am and everything about myself. And yes it's like once your dead you won't notice anything ( I.E. Time space feeling) but That whole idea of me being gone is frightening on a level that I have no comparison. Perhaps it is just an ego thing, but whatever the cause for this sudden fear of dying, I have to be able to get over it if I want to get on with my life. Unfortunetly we are eons away from being immortal beings. I only wish I could be there to see it.
I really wish I could get drunk and forget about all this.
It's times like these I really wish I still believed in religion. At least there's some comfort in some sort of afterlife. Science basically says when you die your entire being is completely gone forever, and the chances of your atoms comming back together in the same sort of combination are impossible. I mean there is a chance that maybe some of your atoms will be part of a living being again but everything that makes up me, my personality my looks, everything will be lost as soon as I am dead. That scares the hell out of me. I like who I am and everything about myself. And yes it's like once your dead you won't notice anything ( I.E. Time space feeling) but That whole idea of me being gone is frightening on a level that I have no comparison. Perhaps it is just an ego thing, but whatever the cause for this sudden fear of dying, I have to be able to get over it if I want to get on with my life. Unfortunetly we are eons away from being immortal beings. I only wish I could be there to see it.
I really wish I could get drunk and forget about all this.