Lost and Alone
I guess that sums up how I feel atm. Everything just seams to be going wrong atm. The person who I looked up to, who I looked to as my role model, who I thought couldn't be faulted. Is now on the same level on me. And it's brought down my world. I duno what to do, all these old cravings are comming back, more intense than they have in the past year-ish. And it's scarie. I thought I finally had something stable, someone I could lean on, and I duno what to do now. I'm so fucking confused. I can't be strong for people, I know I sound like a needey, selfish brat, but it tears me apart trying to be a rock for someone I don't think I can do it. I'll only fuck things up worse. I can't do whats wanted of me. I just want things to be easy and simple. I can feel myself slipping back into old habbits, just by writing on here again I know I am. Wollowing in my self pitty, staying awake untill 2.30 in the morning. I can't do this, I really can't. I duno what to do. I know that relationships are supposed to be give and take, but can't I just on this subject be the taker and he be the giver and I'll give on another?
Gah I'm such a puff
Gah I'm such a puff