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ummm...things are fine, i guess.
Idk, i have a really shitty way of pretending that everything's fine,
eternal optimism?
idk.
i guess not.
school was alot more fun last year.
i had some amazing people in my classes.
amazing people.
but not this year.
i feel really lonely this year.
school's feeling like a prison sentence.
i guess i dont have anyone to talk to.
i'm tired of trying to be friendly and outgoing.
im tired of trying.
i feel like a shell, an empty shell.
souless.
i go, sit, stare, lay my head down, check the time,
then go to the next class to perform that routine again.
what a meaningless existence.
i've been listening to that song "let me hold you" by bow wow alot
like allloooooottt
it's a good song.
there's just something about that song that makes me wanna hear it over and over again.
what an amazing song.
dennis gives me a ride home each day.
that's pretty cool.
it used to be inconvient for him to do so but he got a job at play it again sports so
he takes me home and then heads off to work.
i wanna get better at basketball
im addicted to it
that's the hilite of my day
to play ball in team sports
there's just something about playing it that idk makes me feel good
i like it
that's why i wanna be better
smarter
and more efficient at it.
grant's been teaching me.
he's good.
i've learned alot from him.
i'm not in AP calc anymore.
instead, they moved me to CP stat
that's such a dumb class
i dont know if i should feel really smart or really dumb in it
everyone there's stupid.
just completely and utterly idiots
today we spent half an hour going over one simple problem
and some kids still didn't understand.
yea, i sound cocky and stuff but it's true
i think i'm too smart for that class
ive been pounded with challenging math since 8th grade
it's all strange to me.
the way they do things is just so, unusual.
i don't like it.
it's not how ive been taught all these years
Idk, i have a really shitty way of pretending that everything's fine,
eternal optimism?
idk.
i guess not.
school was alot more fun last year.
i had some amazing people in my classes.
amazing people.
but not this year.
i feel really lonely this year.
school's feeling like a prison sentence.
i guess i dont have anyone to talk to.
i'm tired of trying to be friendly and outgoing.
im tired of trying.
i feel like a shell, an empty shell.
souless.
i go, sit, stare, lay my head down, check the time,
then go to the next class to perform that routine again.
what a meaningless existence.
i've been listening to that song "let me hold you" by bow wow alot
like allloooooottt
it's a good song.
there's just something about that song that makes me wanna hear it over and over again.
what an amazing song.
dennis gives me a ride home each day.
that's pretty cool.
it used to be inconvient for him to do so but he got a job at play it again sports so
he takes me home and then heads off to work.
i wanna get better at basketball
im addicted to it
that's the hilite of my day
to play ball in team sports
there's just something about playing it that idk makes me feel good
i like it
that's why i wanna be better
smarter
and more efficient at it.
grant's been teaching me.
he's good.
i've learned alot from him.
i'm not in AP calc anymore.
instead, they moved me to CP stat
that's such a dumb class
i dont know if i should feel really smart or really dumb in it
everyone there's stupid.
just completely and utterly idiots
today we spent half an hour going over one simple problem
and some kids still didn't understand.
yea, i sound cocky and stuff but it's true
i think i'm too smart for that class
ive been pounded with challenging math since 8th grade
it's all strange to me.
the way they do things is just so, unusual.
i don't like it.
it's not how ive been taught all these years