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Sorry for not writing in a while. Do you ever just get in a funk and get tired of certain things? Please don't kill me for saying this but I just haven't felt like writing....please forgive me (you can't see me right now but I'm actually on my hands and knees begging). There isn't really much to update except that I got my pink permit last Friday at d.ed. and so I have been driving around quite a bit. My parents let me drive an hour and a half to church on Sunday. Our church is near Flint so it's quite a long drive but definitly worth it. I have been reading (or actually I read) a book by Leslie Ludy called Authentic Beauty. Anna actually bought it when we went shopping but let me read it first because I read faster :0) It was sooooo good and inspiring. I was reading it and I was just so overwhelmed and saddened by all of the times I've given my heart and thoughts away to certain guys, sometimes not even realizing it. I'll play the famous "card game" and not even think about how I am not honoring my future husband. It gets so hard sometimes to remember that he's out there somewhere and that I need to honor him with my words, thoughts and actions. I want to be able to face him on our wedding day and have no regrets and know that I did everything I could to meet him at the altar fully his. Every time I become obsessed with a guy a piece of my heart goes to him when it should all go to the guy I marry. When I went shopping with Anna I bought a ring that I have decided to wear as my "purity ring". My parents weren't going to get me one till me sixteenth birthday but I was ready to make the commitment and I desperately needed a material reminder that I am already "taken". It helps so much to remind me of my commitment especially when my thoughts tend to focus on a certain guy. I really encourage all you girls to read this book. It covers so many other things besides what I talked about here. It talks about falling more in love with our "True Prince," God. It was a great spiritual help as well. It's amazing, so get it!