Hakuna Matata

[spangletigress]

It's all just so sick, I can't keep it out of my thoughts. Murder, stealing someone's life, is one thing, but manipulating someone into suicide, stealing someone's will, is another altogether.

So my roommate has a Relient K CD and some of the songs caught my attention today, one of them being Who I Am Hates Who I've Been:

I watched the proverbial

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[firestormsrm]

Upon analyzing the lyrics, it sounds to me like a song of redemption and forgiveness. In other words its a song that fits my situation better than yours being as I'm the one who is:

"So sorry for the person I became,
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again"

Kitty, I can't believe you don't think the suffering I caused only went in one direction. I honestly wanted to mix my Ambien tablets with the vodka my parents kept in the freezer when I saw you had hooked up with Alex. Why I couldn't go through with it I still don't know because it would have saved me months of locking myself in my bedroom alone wallowing in regret.

But returning to the main topic, I don't think this song fits you at all. There's a certain McCartney song however that I believe suits you very well:

Like so many girls, Jenny Wren could sing
But a broken heart, took her song away

Like the other girls, Jenny Wren took wing
She could see the world, and its foolish ways

How, we, spend our days, casting, love aside
Losing, sight of life, day, by, day

She saw poverty, breaking up her home
Wounded warriors, took her song away

But the day will come, Jenny Wren will sing
When this broken world, mends its foolish ways

Then we, spend our days, catching up on life
All be-cause of you, Jenny Wren

You saw who we are, Jenny Wren

It's a truly beautiful yet haunting tune. You should hear it sometime: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K4w5-XZ244c

Kitty I'm afraid I can't do "absolutely nothing." Cyrano de Bergerac did "absolutely nothing" about admitting his affections to Roxanne until his last breathing moments. And what did it give them? Cyrano never got to live a happy life with the one he loved and Roxanne probably lived the rest of her life in mourning and misery.

I remember hearing somewhere that "Sometimes you have to hurt the ones you love in order to help them." Please understand that I am only doing this because I honestly care for you and don't think I can truly exist without you.

[spangletigress]

Roxanne probably mourned miserably because she loved him. But I am not Roxanne... more like Faraday, and you Axis. If you'd like, you may find these books and read all six of them. And how apt an analogy, as the author explains that she had tried to kill off Faraday in the second book, but kept her around when the fans just wouldn't have it.

If nothing else, admitting you did that to me intentionally further convinces me to want you out of my life.

Tough love is one thing, but making someone want to die only to make you feel as if you had murdered them directly is another.

[stealthpainter]

Bullshit. You've told her you still love her. Great. She's told you she doesn't care. Okay. Now deal with it. You had your chance, boy, and you missed it. You messed up. Everyone messes up; it's part of life. Your problem is you're obsessing over it instead of just letting it go. If you really care about this girl, you should only care about her happiness. Well guess what? She seems to be pretty happy without you in her life. You've suddenly jumped back in without any invitation and now you're messing her up. It's pretty clear to me that she just wants you to leave her alone. I also fail to see how you hurting her in the way you did helped her in any way. Except the obvious fact that she is no longer in a relationship with you, which apparently was not a healthy one in the first place.
If you don't think you can exist without her, that sounds like your problem, not hers. Just back off, man. She's made it pretty clear that she wants you to go away. You're only hurting your case by continuing to push. You're also being obnoxious. Quit dwelling on the past and just focus on improving your future.