I HATE THIS
i hate this i hate everything about my house! its not my home ne more we are painting it getting ready for OTHER people for the new people.. well fuck the new people its my home! not theirs and i hate them.. and now its my room i have to take down everything that made it mine my pics from matt that he drew me everrything off teh wall.. got rid of my couch so now i cant sit i hate this its still my home! mine! wtf its not nemore my home is gone i dont have a home nemore!!!!!!! i hate this it sucks i hate my parents i hate the people who will take my home away from me..THEY CANT DO THAT!!!!!!!!! north carolina but never be home! my house is always soooo busy! people are constantly coming in and out stopping by visiting.. its never quiet between my aunt wendy aunt lisa.. grandparents brianne matt and kay will occasionly stop by.. neighbors always coming in.. some of my cousins always in.. i dont want the memories i will when i move i could totally forget everything and everybody that way i wont be sad and i wont be in soo much pain nemore because im leaving everybody i love i cant stand this pain and being soo sad all the time and then going to school and being happy and acting like nothing is wrong and then listening to other peoples stuff but too afraid to just yell and vent and cry even like i want to because nobody wants to talk about it.. nobody wants to admit that im going and i am but i cant talk about so now im just always in pain and forced to pretend to be happy i cant stand it nemore!! i hate this i hate it all