The last
I don;t know is this matters anymore.
I don;t even know who cares anymore.
This will be my last journal entry.
Why?
Because I have made a mistake. I made a mistake in my actions.
and that mistake cost me a VERY dear friend. Never again will I be able to share moments with this person. All because of changes that happened within me and the unfortuinate ability to not cope with or understand what I have become. I hurt again. Hurt like I have felt before and all because of my weaknesses.
I want people to know that this was not something I wanted; it was a mistake and I wish with all my heart I could take it back. Alas we are judged by our actions and mine were those of a desprate person; a person desperately clinging to what little he had left of his past.
I forced it all away.
I miss our talks, I miss our time. For now I have only my memories.
I wanted so much to be a part of your life and now It will never happen because of misunderstanding of myself and the inability to communicate.
I'm sorry.
From the bottom of my soul I am sorry.
There will be no comments to this.
If any of my friends want to talk or just ask questiosn. My e-mail is there.
once again; I wish things could have been different, I wish I never had to change into what I became.
I don;t even know who cares anymore.
This will be my last journal entry.
Why?
Because I have made a mistake. I made a mistake in my actions.
and that mistake cost me a VERY dear friend. Never again will I be able to share moments with this person. All because of changes that happened within me and the unfortuinate ability to not cope with or understand what I have become. I hurt again. Hurt like I have felt before and all because of my weaknesses.
I want people to know that this was not something I wanted; it was a mistake and I wish with all my heart I could take it back. Alas we are judged by our actions and mine were those of a desprate person; a person desperately clinging to what little he had left of his past.
I forced it all away.
I miss our talks, I miss our time. For now I have only my memories.
I wanted so much to be a part of your life and now It will never happen because of misunderstanding of myself and the inability to communicate.
I'm sorry.
From the bottom of my soul I am sorry.
There will be no comments to this.
If any of my friends want to talk or just ask questiosn. My e-mail is there.
once again; I wish things could have been different, I wish I never had to change into what I became.