Sometimes
Sometimes I want to violently expel everything that is inside of me so that for just one moment I am empty. Then maybe I could begin again and remake everything that builds the soul, that builds emotion, the very building block of matter even. And then maybe people wouldn't make me feel so ill. Maybe I could get over things that have chosen to take residence inside of me.
Sometimes nothing matters, and the black hole grows bigger, more complete. Sometimes an empty space gets filled, and everything becomes clear and all I want is to become evolved, to be brighter, more magnificent.
Sometimes I am ugly, and hateful, and I wish for most all people to fucking die.
Sometimes I am so in love, so happy, so at peace that it is almost unreal. I am everything to someone, I am the axis. Today I am so happy I could cry. He makes me that way.
Sometimes nothing matters, and the black hole grows bigger, more complete. Sometimes an empty space gets filled, and everything becomes clear and all I want is to become evolved, to be brighter, more magnificent.
Sometimes I am ugly, and hateful, and I wish for most all people to fucking die.
Sometimes I am so in love, so happy, so at peace that it is almost unreal. I am everything to someone, I am the axis. Today I am so happy I could cry. He makes me that way.