Breaking the bars
Today I drove over two hundred miles. Its the first time Ive left my personal prison in two months. All i've done is work, swim team, and stay in my dorms, leaving for food to the chow hall. for two months.
At seven am I left for Boise, to drop a freind off at jail. its complicated and none of your business much less mine. but no one else would give him a ride and he asked me.
it was a turn and burn since i really have no business being in Boise it seems.
still it was nice to just cruise down the highway, not speeding or anything with my radio blaring and just relaxing.
Once i got back i decided to wash my car (six months overdue) i completly detailed it inside and out, and of course now it looks to want to rain tonight. whatever.
I start school tommorow, its exciteing and nerve racking all the same, I know i can handle it but for so long i've shyed away from school its against my nature to walk into a class room again.
School days are going to suck. I start my days at six am and will run non stop till ten. it hurts my soul just thinking about it.
I feel as though i've acomplished nothing in my life lately...
I'll miss my brothers graduation due to work.
I cant get married to my beautiful wife due to work.
I have no freedom due to work.
Im losing my mind to work...
Everytime i take a breath and relax and get two steps ahead it all seems to come back and knock me four steps behind.
its a good thing im stubborn
At seven am I left for Boise, to drop a freind off at jail. its complicated and none of your business much less mine. but no one else would give him a ride and he asked me.
it was a turn and burn since i really have no business being in Boise it seems.
still it was nice to just cruise down the highway, not speeding or anything with my radio blaring and just relaxing.
Once i got back i decided to wash my car (six months overdue) i completly detailed it inside and out, and of course now it looks to want to rain tonight. whatever.
I start school tommorow, its exciteing and nerve racking all the same, I know i can handle it but for so long i've shyed away from school its against my nature to walk into a class room again.
School days are going to suck. I start my days at six am and will run non stop till ten. it hurts my soul just thinking about it.
I feel as though i've acomplished nothing in my life lately...
I'll miss my brothers graduation due to work.
I cant get married to my beautiful wife due to work.
I have no freedom due to work.
Im losing my mind to work...
Everytime i take a breath and relax and get two steps ahead it all seems to come back and knock me four steps behind.
its a good thing im stubborn