Safety and Release.
I need to stop trying to send messages into the dark.
They are not going anywhere nor are they being received.
I feel like I'm back to the start, repeating the same things over
and over
and over.
I know things for me are going to get worse before they get better.
Yesterday was a very hard day to go through and hopefully today will pass easier.
I feel like all I'm good at is losing friends.
I lost another one yesterday.
I don't see her ever making her way back to me. She's made her decision and I'm doing my best to not be in the way.
I ask myself how I let someone mean so much to me.
Honestly it just happened.
and forcing myself to stop thinking about her
and forcing myself to stop feeling
its the worst.
and it'll only get worse.
They are not going anywhere nor are they being received.
I feel like I'm back to the start, repeating the same things over
and over
and over.
I know things for me are going to get worse before they get better.
Yesterday was a very hard day to go through and hopefully today will pass easier.
I feel like all I'm good at is losing friends.
I lost another one yesterday.
I don't see her ever making her way back to me. She's made her decision and I'm doing my best to not be in the way.
I ask myself how I let someone mean so much to me.
Honestly it just happened.
and forcing myself to stop thinking about her
and forcing myself to stop feeling
its the worst.
and it'll only get worse.