Again I go Unnoticed
There are only a couple songs out there where when heard I am reminded of exactly where and when I first heard it and the situation. This song came to me when I was sitting in the back seat of my buddy's S13 (240sx). We were just coming home from a show.
It was him and his girlfriend. His sister was in another car behind us with the guy she eventually ended up marrying. He popped in a mix and this was the first song in the cd. I had the biggest crush on his sister. I was, before this year of high school, just a commoner in comparison to the royalty my buddy ran around with. My buddy was just your average punk who through his antics found himself in the popular circles and was dating one of the hottest girls in school. His sister was just a freshman that year and I, I was a sophomore. Already she had the attention from the senior guys and was on the dance team.
This was my year! My family just moved into this nice big beautiful house. It was 2700 square feet with a modest 10,000 gallon pool in the back. Almost twice the size of the house I grew up in and in a much nicer neighborhood that popular kids could respect. This was my year of re-invention... I did just that.
I never cared to be popular... I just wanted to be noticed by girls and to be respected by this group of kids that seemed to have it all. I forced myself to be more social. I went to parties. I drank and participated in the shenanigans that made my group of friends noticed. I took chances with girls, made mistakes, anything that could give me some more experience. In hopes that when I had the chance I'd take my new skills and make the moves on the right girl.
She was the right girl or at least at the time I was convinced of it. Problem was... she never noticed me. I was over at their house numerous times. To her I was just her brother's friend... just another punk kid playing guitar for a garage band.
So anyway... there I was, sitting in the back seat of this 240sx. Chris's voice came out of the speakers and my entire life was changed. Staring out of the rear window I could see the headlights of the car behind us. I could see her face. She was just so entertained, laughing, and just taking my breath away. I turned around and slumped in my seat. I knew this was the closest I'll ever be to her.
---- Fast forward 12 years ---
So i guess you are wondering why am I telling you all of this. Well... tonight was the closest feeling I've had to that feeling I had 12 years ago. Just knowing that no matter what accomplishments I've made to improve my position in life over the past few years... I am faced looking at a woman I could never be with. Just as it was in high school... I'm only close enough to be 1 degree of separation.
The difference between then and now. I know better than to get stuck.
So with that... NEXT!
It was him and his girlfriend. His sister was in another car behind us with the guy she eventually ended up marrying. He popped in a mix and this was the first song in the cd. I had the biggest crush on his sister. I was, before this year of high school, just a commoner in comparison to the royalty my buddy ran around with. My buddy was just your average punk who through his antics found himself in the popular circles and was dating one of the hottest girls in school. His sister was just a freshman that year and I, I was a sophomore. Already she had the attention from the senior guys and was on the dance team.
This was my year! My family just moved into this nice big beautiful house. It was 2700 square feet with a modest 10,000 gallon pool in the back. Almost twice the size of the house I grew up in and in a much nicer neighborhood that popular kids could respect. This was my year of re-invention... I did just that.
I never cared to be popular... I just wanted to be noticed by girls and to be respected by this group of kids that seemed to have it all. I forced myself to be more social. I went to parties. I drank and participated in the shenanigans that made my group of friends noticed. I took chances with girls, made mistakes, anything that could give me some more experience. In hopes that when I had the chance I'd take my new skills and make the moves on the right girl.
She was the right girl or at least at the time I was convinced of it. Problem was... she never noticed me. I was over at their house numerous times. To her I was just her brother's friend... just another punk kid playing guitar for a garage band.
So anyway... there I was, sitting in the back seat of this 240sx. Chris's voice came out of the speakers and my entire life was changed. Staring out of the rear window I could see the headlights of the car behind us. I could see her face. She was just so entertained, laughing, and just taking my breath away. I turned around and slumped in my seat. I knew this was the closest I'll ever be to her.
---- Fast forward 12 years ---
So i guess you are wondering why am I telling you all of this. Well... tonight was the closest feeling I've had to that feeling I had 12 years ago. Just knowing that no matter what accomplishments I've made to improve my position in life over the past few years... I am faced looking at a woman I could never be with. Just as it was in high school... I'm only close enough to be 1 degree of separation.
The difference between then and now. I know better than to get stuck.
So with that... NEXT!