I really don't like endings
I hate my jobs for multiple reasons. Main one though, it gives me too much time to think. These past 6 months have been filled with too many goodbyes to very important people in my life. One of them I honestly have no clue what made her truly start hating me and never wanting to speak to me. The other, well I know I'm better off without him, but that doesn't mean that I'm always tempted to "run into" him. But then again, neither one of us can keep fucking with each others' heads. Okay, he can't keep fucking with mine. And I miss our conversations, with both missing parties. I miss how she and I could talk about everything and how open we were. What the hell happened? She was one of my closest friends at school. This sucks. I just miss my friends, even the bad ones. Maybe it's because it's getting closer to that time of year and they would understand what I'm feeling. Or maybe I truly miss my friends. Oh well, I'll most likely never speak to them again and I will have to be ok with it. Other than that, things are going wonderfully in my life. I'm looking for a new job and very happy with my personal life. This weekend will be exciting. Tabitha is coming down for her 21st birthday so I'm taking her out. Then Brandon will be in town on Saturday and we're going to a hockey game in Peoria ... Woo hoo! go hockey! Then this Sunday I'm going to the Pirate Queen with my sister and Grandma Rose. Very busy, very fun weekend ahead of me. I can't wait.