Moment of insight
I have come to the realization that a majority of the men I hold dear to my heart really don't deserve to be there. For example, I have finally seen the light with Brandon. In fact, it's so bright, that it's practically blinding. Why should I sit here and tell myself I'm not good enough for him? No, it's the other way around. He's not good enough for me. If he can't see how wonderful and amazing I really am then he's not worth chasing after. In fact, I should never have chased after him to begin with. He's not worth it for the mere fact is that even if he did know how amazing I am, he runs the opposite direction scared. I need a man, not a scared little boy.
This seems to be a trend with most of the men in my life. I pick the ones that I believe are worth it and live in a fasade of false hope. I can't keep living my life this way. There are definitely some people in my life that I need to cut out. I have a lot of thinking and doing to do in the next couple of weeks. I need to sort out exactly what it is that I want right now and what will be best for me. I need to stop being so self-absorbed in a life of fantasies and what-ifs. If a man is worth my time then he will know just how amazing I am and show me the respect I deserve.
It's time for me to stop hiding. I need to shed some light on the self-confident woman I once was. I truly believe that she's still in me. She has been peeking out more often these days. I no longer have a man who's bringing me down. I only have myself to blame. No one can do anything to you that you won't allow them to do, right? Well, I'm done allowing people to treat me wrongly. I'm done with the boys. And I know for a fact I will not find a man in DeKalb. Only little boys pretending to be something that they are not. A town full of college boys brings nothing but trouble. Especially to a woman finally shedding her adolescent skin.
I will be disappearing for a couple of days here. I'm not disclosing this information to anyone because this is my time to take a journey into myself. Quoting: "I'm going to find myself at the bottom of a bottle."
This seems to be a trend with most of the men in my life. I pick the ones that I believe are worth it and live in a fasade of false hope. I can't keep living my life this way. There are definitely some people in my life that I need to cut out. I have a lot of thinking and doing to do in the next couple of weeks. I need to sort out exactly what it is that I want right now and what will be best for me. I need to stop being so self-absorbed in a life of fantasies and what-ifs. If a man is worth my time then he will know just how amazing I am and show me the respect I deserve.
It's time for me to stop hiding. I need to shed some light on the self-confident woman I once was. I truly believe that she's still in me. She has been peeking out more often these days. I no longer have a man who's bringing me down. I only have myself to blame. No one can do anything to you that you won't allow them to do, right? Well, I'm done allowing people to treat me wrongly. I'm done with the boys. And I know for a fact I will not find a man in DeKalb. Only little boys pretending to be something that they are not. A town full of college boys brings nothing but trouble. Especially to a woman finally shedding her adolescent skin.
I will be disappearing for a couple of days here. I'm not disclosing this information to anyone because this is my time to take a journey into myself. Quoting: "I'm going to find myself at the bottom of a bottle."