~ WHOA ~
So much going on - so little time - soooo tired.
The play a HUGE success! A nearly full house for preview and press night - mostly family and friends, but still - almost full!
SOLD - OUT all 3 nights - they had to turn people away at the door!
I am really proud of the work I did. I didn't self-criticize as much as I use to - or if I did - I've let it go ALOT faster. All of my training came together even after 14 years. It was divine!
I feel like a part of me is alive again and part of my spirit is back.
What was uber cool??? I got to meet octavialuna and her love Milena! ! Squeeeeee!
It was kind of weird and daunting that my RL and my LJLife crossed paths. "Six degrees" and all that. It was wonderful to put a flesh and blood person with the photos and writing. I felt such love and warmth from them both - and G*d Bless her for sitting that long with her pain. I can't express just how touched I was/am that she came to see my play and support me in my scary endeavor. OCTAVIALUNA "ROCKS !"
She also got to see Hip Kitty and can now put a face with the name. . . .hee hee I didn't even have to tell her.
SO weird. . . .I don't tell anyone my LJ name and that's how I like it. I've only given the address out to two close friends. . . and I don't think they even read it.
This is still my haven and I thank Octavialuna for maintaining that safety. She and Milena are a cute couple and I wish we could have spent longer talking and getting to know each other.
Funny thing, I REALLY thought I saw Will Stronghold and The Crane Wife in the audience too. . . yes, I'm a peeker and peeked out thru small openings in the curtains. I always do if I can. . . and frankly, it really REALLY reduces my nervous energy so I can breathe on stage.
The play went very well and to quote my character : " I did it!" After all these years, I can still ride the bike or the horse. . . ha ha
I want to do some more work in town. . . either of my own conception or another play.. . we shall see.
Thank you to ALL of you here at LJ who sent your messages of love, support, encouragement and cheers! You all rock and you all gave me so much energy that I pray you all get it back 10 fold! !
I will write more about this whole thing too but until then let me say this:
I feel so blessed to have been given this role. I HAD my 'third' baby and I am fulfilled. I can't explain it, but I got just what I wanted - including holding a real baby after the last show, and symbolically bathing and handing over a baby DOLL as closure.
I know it sounds bizarre - but trust me - it's not.
I feel so free - so full and so joyous about it. In fact, as we were winding down on Sunday evening, I asked Hubman when he is going to get 'snipped'. . . because I'm now officially ready. He has always said that he would do it, and I have a great urologist who I know he'd like and feel comfortable with. . . and I'm so surprised and grateful that this feeling of fulfillment has come before I turned 40. THAT is yet another blessing.
I'm ready for the next adventure and I am in a different place. . . . like I said, too much to write about now, but that's the highlights.
I must go to sleep now. . .. talk to you tomorrow!
XOXO, ~Spa
The play a HUGE success! A nearly full house for preview and press night - mostly family and friends, but still - almost full!
SOLD - OUT all 3 nights - they had to turn people away at the door!
I am really proud of the work I did. I didn't self-criticize as much as I use to - or if I did - I've let it go ALOT faster. All of my training came together even after 14 years. It was divine!
I feel like a part of me is alive again and part of my spirit is back.
What was uber cool??? I got to meet octavialuna and her love Milena! ! Squeeeeee!
It was kind of weird and daunting that my RL and my LJLife crossed paths. "Six degrees" and all that. It was wonderful to put a flesh and blood person with the photos and writing. I felt such love and warmth from them both - and G*d Bless her for sitting that long with her pain. I can't express just how touched I was/am that she came to see my play and support me in my scary endeavor. OCTAVIALUNA "ROCKS !"
She also got to see Hip Kitty and can now put a face with the name. . . .hee hee I didn't even have to tell her.
SO weird. . . .I don't tell anyone my LJ name and that's how I like it. I've only given the address out to two close friends. . . and I don't think they even read it.
This is still my haven and I thank Octavialuna for maintaining that safety. She and Milena are a cute couple and I wish we could have spent longer talking and getting to know each other.
Funny thing, I REALLY thought I saw Will Stronghold and The Crane Wife in the audience too. . . yes, I'm a peeker and peeked out thru small openings in the curtains. I always do if I can. . . and frankly, it really REALLY reduces my nervous energy so I can breathe on stage.
The play went very well and to quote my character : " I did it!" After all these years, I can still ride the bike or the horse. . . ha ha
I want to do some more work in town. . . either of my own conception or another play.. . we shall see.
Thank you to ALL of you here at LJ who sent your messages of love, support, encouragement and cheers! You all rock and you all gave me so much energy that I pray you all get it back 10 fold! !
I will write more about this whole thing too but until then let me say this:
I feel so blessed to have been given this role. I HAD my 'third' baby and I am fulfilled. I can't explain it, but I got just what I wanted - including holding a real baby after the last show, and symbolically bathing and handing over a baby DOLL as closure.
I know it sounds bizarre - but trust me - it's not.
I feel so free - so full and so joyous about it. In fact, as we were winding down on Sunday evening, I asked Hubman when he is going to get 'snipped'. . . because I'm now officially ready. He has always said that he would do it, and I have a great urologist who I know he'd like and feel comfortable with. . . and I'm so surprised and grateful that this feeling of fulfillment has come before I turned 40. THAT is yet another blessing.
I'm ready for the next adventure and I am in a different place. . . . like I said, too much to write about now, but that's the highlights.
I must go to sleep now. . .. talk to you tomorrow!
XOXO, ~Spa