Where Did I Go Wrong?
What happened? Why is my life all of a sudden tumbled over after it was going so well.. I decided that I didnt want to be with Ben anymore. I cant explain why but we've grown apart. I love him more than I can say in a journal or in words for that matter. He is a huge part of my life and for some reason I just dont have a physical attraction to him anymore. I'm hoping its a phase and I get over it quickly so I can be back with him. I want to be with him but something is blocking me from it. I wish I know what it was exactly.
These 4 days have been so hard on both of us... I've never cried so much in my life. I've never had this much pain to go through. My world is crumbling down around me and I dont know how to keep going. I dont understand why if it felt right to make the decision to separate why does it hurt so much now? I dont understand it. Maybe one day it will be explained to me.
I do miss been as my boyfriend/lover. He is a wonderful sweet guy, I just dont know what to do anymore. Maybe I just want to date around for awhile... See what the world has to offer before settling down. I do love Ben a lot and he is the one man I can see myself with 5 yrs from now. Hopefully he forgives me one day and we get back together. We shall see...
These 4 days have been so hard on both of us... I've never cried so much in my life. I've never had this much pain to go through. My world is crumbling down around me and I dont know how to keep going. I dont understand why if it felt right to make the decision to separate why does it hurt so much now? I dont understand it. Maybe one day it will be explained to me.
I do miss been as my boyfriend/lover. He is a wonderful sweet guy, I just dont know what to do anymore. Maybe I just want to date around for awhile... See what the world has to offer before settling down. I do love Ben a lot and he is the one man I can see myself with 5 yrs from now. Hopefully he forgives me one day and we get back together. We shall see...