Cold Feet
It really sucks that now I'm having serious second thoughts (again) about going into medicine. Except this time it's not so much my own worries that have brought this bought of fear on, but the concerns of others...
I went to see one of the professors I asked to write my letter of recommendation, and got completely blindsided. Apparently I've done a poor job of communicating the reasons why I want to go to medical school - I can see where I failed to do so, but the doubts she expressed took me so aback that I'm now stuck in a bit of a rut. I believe she thought she would spur me on to do better, however the opposite is occurring.
I hardly know what to do anymore. I have to apply now if I plan to enter in the 2009 class. I don't want to delay yet another year, but I am having serious second thoughts about my plans and it is all because I don't have enough information. But I don't know where to go to get it. I've been generally depressed lately because of it all, which hardly helps with motivating myself to actually seek the solutions to this mess. Worst yet, I need to go back this week with all the answers, defend my motivations and decisions, and finalize the process. Everything I don't want to do right now.
What do I do? I've changed my mind so many times in the last few days I don't know which way is up anymore...
The only solution is to take time to research and experience the field. I'm a little late deciding it because I'm running out of time quickly. I just wish a few more people like my boss and this professor were encouraging me instead of discouraging me...
I went to see one of the professors I asked to write my letter of recommendation, and got completely blindsided. Apparently I've done a poor job of communicating the reasons why I want to go to medical school - I can see where I failed to do so, but the doubts she expressed took me so aback that I'm now stuck in a bit of a rut. I believe she thought she would spur me on to do better, however the opposite is occurring.
I hardly know what to do anymore. I have to apply now if I plan to enter in the 2009 class. I don't want to delay yet another year, but I am having serious second thoughts about my plans and it is all because I don't have enough information. But I don't know where to go to get it. I've been generally depressed lately because of it all, which hardly helps with motivating myself to actually seek the solutions to this mess. Worst yet, I need to go back this week with all the answers, defend my motivations and decisions, and finalize the process. Everything I don't want to do right now.
What do I do? I've changed my mind so many times in the last few days I don't know which way is up anymore...
The only solution is to take time to research and experience the field. I'm a little late deciding it because I'm running out of time quickly. I just wish a few more people like my boss and this professor were encouraging me instead of discouraging me...