I fail as a blogger... xD
I'm not going to be very active as a cosplayer or a blogger anymore. (I never was a good blogger anyway. Sorry for all the depressing journals)
I really do want to cosplay as much as I used to, I remember cosplaying almost every Saturday back in 2009, but recently I almost caused a car accident. Even though I'm told that it was the driver's fault for getting distracted while I was simply going on a dog walk, I still constantly feel like it's my fault for going out in public as Sealand by myself anyway. (I was with my parents, but they obviously weren't in costume)
I also don't go to many photoshoots or gatherings. This could be my fault for being so antisocial lately.
I don't know anyone I could easily do a photoshoot with because the photographers or wannabe-photographers I do know locally I don't get along with, and everyone else lives far away and scheduling would be tough.
And because I cosplay from Hetalia, I don't seem to find anyone who would photoshoot with me (I've always wanted to do an Italy+Germany, Axis Powers, or something with Sealand, photoshoot, but I don't know anyone who could help, or anyone who actually cosplays as the characters I could photoshoot with, plus I fail at posing xD )
My parents also expect me to do a lot of things by myself and usually don't want to drive me to these gatherings I want to go to, though they don't mind and will, plus I have to go with friends, except for the rare two times I went by myself (which is why I don't go to many meet-ups or anicons), so I feel bad about having my parents constantly driving me to places, especially if they hardly have anything to do there.
There are also non-Hetalia cosplays I would really like to do (Jacuzzi from "Baccano!" is at the top of my list) but because I'm low on money, unless I attempt a closet cosplay, or sell stuff to get money for these cosplays, they're very unlikely. (also because I'm being told by my dad that I shouldn't spend money "frivolously")
I would also just like to hang out with my anicon friends whether we cosplay or not! QAQ
I really really do miss you guys! \(;m; \)
Also, after my trip to Europe (which was awesome but exhausting), I've been feeling rather antisocial and more annoyed with people lately.
I'm okay with talking to friends, though I'm slowly growing apart from a lot of them, probably because I'm not caring for their behaviour, or some of them have moved away. ;A;
But my worst classes, economics and cooking, I'm at my limit with dealing with the kids in these classes. Sure I don't talk to them, and people will be people, so why bother?
I'm just tired of kids easily complaining about how cold the 15C weather is, and the really rude kids transferring to my cooking class, making everyone else look nice compared to them and just making the class run slower for their selfish reasons (they also bully this one girl with Autism just to see her get angry, which really irritating to watch or listen to)
This has also affected my artwork, which currently looks worse and is taking a lot longer to draw than last year, though I was just feeling unmotivated to draw.
Though I'm only dealing with these people and not transferring classes because I only have a few months of school left before college, and so I can understand how to deal with such people later in life...
Oh, how much I miss Europe!
So after all that complaining, here's what will happen:
Most likely, I won't be cosplaying until Sakura Festival in April (I might go on the day of the parade, when cosplayers march out in hot weather xD )
I will definitely attend Fanime the entire weekend (though I haven't paid my ticket yet, for some reason, it won't allow me to log into my account! QAQ )
After that, I'm hoping to go to Sac Anime summer to make up for the winter con I missed while I was on vacation, and perhaps a Hetalia Day 2011 meet (if I'm still interested by then xD ), then... I have no idea.
Ciao for now guys! （＊＾O＾)ノ～♡