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Okay, I'm going to stop reading fic codas to this episode now. And I don't mean "oh, I say that, but then I'll do it anyway because apparently I enjoy throwing my soul out under an oncoming train!" like I did (....repeatedly) with the promo.
Spoilers:
Why is everyone writing Sam stands and watches Dean/Lisa/Ben ....and then walks away, even though he's fully alive / whatever? STOP MURDERING MY SOUL, PEOPLE. I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS. InnerDean helpfully supplies that he's keeping his promise FOR NOW but that sooner or later he's probably going to go nuts and go dig a hole in Stull Cemetery to try to get to Sam (okay we'll ignore for the moment that this innerDean of mine is actually a nutcase, because aside from the crazy, the point still stands) and that the best thing Sam could do is retire WITH HIM rather than SEPARATE HIMSELF FROM DEAN, DAMNIT.
*FLAILS WITH MUCH INTENSITY*
There is no way Dean and Lisa's relationship will ever be healthy. Chuck!narrative says Dean wanted to die, or to find Sam... but he's keeping his promise because it was a promise. If all he wants is to find Sam or DIE, there's no way this will end well if he keeps on thinking Sam's in hell, okay? That is a very, very unhealthy relationship! If Sam IS alive, and walks away, he's basically dooming Dean, Lisa, and Ben to a really bad thing, whereas if Dean knows he's alive, I'm pretty sure he'd be okay with retiring and settling down! aefhafbatjnh.
So, I don't get how people feel this is a satisfying coda to this season finale. So I guess I'll be avoiding fic until I'm either better equipped to handle this issue without crying, or until people get that and start writing happier things. Not that the stuff I've read was bad! It was great! I just can't handle it, and can't see it as anything but hopelessly bleak if it goes down that way.
Vaguely related, sometime last week I felt the beginnings of a S5!Samuse... aaand he's fully-formed now. Which is great, because it means he and crazy!Dean are, uh, a little conflicted with each other right now. And basically they're making it even harder for me to stop feeling like I want to cry.
My emotion level over this episode is ridiculous, guys.
Spoilers:
Why is everyone writing Sam stands and watches Dean/Lisa/Ben ....and then walks away, even though he's fully alive / whatever? STOP MURDERING MY SOUL, PEOPLE. I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS. InnerDean helpfully supplies that he's keeping his promise FOR NOW but that sooner or later he's probably going to go nuts and go dig a hole in Stull Cemetery to try to get to Sam (okay we'll ignore for the moment that this innerDean of mine is actually a nutcase, because aside from the crazy, the point still stands) and that the best thing Sam could do is retire WITH HIM rather than SEPARATE HIMSELF FROM DEAN, DAMNIT.
*FLAILS WITH MUCH INTENSITY*
There is no way Dean and Lisa's relationship will ever be healthy. Chuck!narrative says Dean wanted to die, or to find Sam... but he's keeping his promise because it was a promise. If all he wants is to find Sam or DIE, there's no way this will end well if he keeps on thinking Sam's in hell, okay? That is a very, very unhealthy relationship! If Sam IS alive, and walks away, he's basically dooming Dean, Lisa, and Ben to a really bad thing, whereas if Dean knows he's alive, I'm pretty sure he'd be okay with retiring and settling down! aefhafbatjnh.
So, I don't get how people feel this is a satisfying coda to this season finale. So I guess I'll be avoiding fic until I'm either better equipped to handle this issue without crying, or until people get that and start writing happier things. Not that the stuff I've read was bad! It was great! I just can't handle it, and can't see it as anything but hopelessly bleak if it goes down that way.
Vaguely related, sometime last week I felt the beginnings of a S5!Samuse... aaand he's fully-formed now. Which is great, because it means he and crazy!Dean are, uh, a little conflicted with each other right now. And basically they're making it even harder for me to stop feeling like I want to cry.
My emotion level over this episode is ridiculous, guys.