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[spades_fire]

• I am not the most patient person ever. The sixth is like, forever away.
• Computer games are distracting. I forgot about that, having no CD drive for so long. Mmm, games.
• InnerSam had a serious freakout the other day because Madre and I were fighting and he was in full defiant-son!mode on top of my existing defiant-daughter!mode (because I'm not actually angellic or perfect?) - and the fighting was unpleasant and ended with me curling up in bed having a minor panic attack, of sorts, and that cued him up going IwantDeanomg 'cause he's still traumatized from the whole being-kidnapped-thing, and then he/I realized that my!Dean is either my momma or singe_allerdyce and madre was pissed and the cause of the problem, and I had no internet with which to throw Sam at Singe, and thus COMPLETELY UNAVAILABLE, and so IT WAS NOT GOOD. AT ALL.
  • I then cried for a while, and I then slept six hours in the middle of the afternoon and had cracky nightmares about shapeshifters that were eating peoples' faces off.
    • This whole paragraph sounds like crazy on a stick. Please to be ignoring that fact. I am not crazy, I just have very intense inspiration. Or something.
    • Also my mute!Dean muse causes a lot of trouble in my brain for someone who doesn't use his voice. adfhadfh why is it not the sixth yet? D:<
• I do not really like drinking cola, but I am left with no other caffeine source. I feel all unclean and gross inside from drinking it, gaaag. Need moar tea in my life.
• Also? Zzzzzzzz.