and the fear of god is in me now. dissolve

[spadecoffin]

crappy pay day, crappy day off, together make a shitty weekend. more money more problems. i hope this next pay check has NOOO godamn bills. soo, i get 2 letters, one from the manicupal court telling me i have to pay the rest of my ticket or have a warrant, goody. and THEN i get a letter from my bondsman,whom i paid off yesterday, but it says i have a court date on dec 9, fuck all of that. no one told me and i'm sick of them motherfuckers, i don't want them in my fucken agenda at all. i will kill someone with my hands if they try to pull some shit, i put up with enough shit already from this so called home, and pple at work, and i guess everyone can just jump on that boat. so with all of that bs, yesterday was payday, and today was my day off, and i haven't done shit.... no one calls, i don't know pples numbers and everyone and i mean EVERYONE talks shit and i guess i appearently do to..since that is what i hear from other pple, so i am talkin shit behind my own back haha, seriously though, i know i talk my share of shit, but it's always about pple at work, since they're all i know. i don't feel like anybody i have hung out with the past week or more has wanted to hang out with me just did for something to do. i don't have a voice or opinion though except on here though. i fucken hate drama so much. it's avoidable to some extent atleast. soooo, i think i just rambled on for a long time and it somehow made it as a blog enrty.

"can you see me going down down down, down down down?,
i am scraming out loud."