so damn tired
The smart thing would have been to turn off the computer today. I do not really think of myself as an especially smart person, when it comes to things like this.
I'm not going to get into what shook down at Penn State tonight. I followed it on Twitter and on Facebook, and reacted on both sites as well, and I am sitting here in cold, remote Colorado quivering with rage and the feeling that this was all done the way it was done to pacify national finger-pointing. One of the men charged with perjury in this case remains on Penn State's payroll, while another man, who legally committed no crime, was fired -- after he said he would resign at the end of the season. I will defend many things about my university, but these acts? They do bring me shame.
God, I'm just sick over this. All of it. Every part.
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In other news, I'll probably hit 5000 words tonight with my NaNo story. I'd intended to write a whole bunch, buuut then I got sucked into the news, and I'm so exhausted at this point that I'll just try to put down a page, maybe.
Val and Mark asked me today how they can support me in feeling less tired, and I honestly didn't have an answer. It didn't help that this came after they called my slowness on projects to my attention, but I've been thinking about it all day, and I'm still not sure. Intellectually I know there are things I can do, but mustering up the energy to, say, order magnesium and B vitamins, and make an appointment with a doctor, feels extremely difficult.
I need to do something, of course. Maybe tomorrow.
I'm not going to get into what shook down at Penn State tonight. I followed it on Twitter and on Facebook, and reacted on both sites as well, and I am sitting here in cold, remote Colorado quivering with rage and the feeling that this was all done the way it was done to pacify national finger-pointing. One of the men charged with perjury in this case remains on Penn State's payroll, while another man, who legally committed no crime, was fired -- after he said he would resign at the end of the season. I will defend many things about my university, but these acts? They do bring me shame.
God, I'm just sick over this. All of it. Every part.
***
In other news, I'll probably hit 5000 words tonight with my NaNo story. I'd intended to write a whole bunch, buuut then I got sucked into the news, and I'm so exhausted at this point that I'll just try to put down a page, maybe.
Val and Mark asked me today how they can support me in feeling less tired, and I honestly didn't have an answer. It didn't help that this came after they called my slowness on projects to my attention, but I've been thinking about it all day, and I'm still not sure. Intellectually I know there are things I can do, but mustering up the energy to, say, order magnesium and B vitamins, and make an appointment with a doctor, feels extremely difficult.
I need to do something, of course. Maybe tomorrow.