Pain
A small word of four letters, but yesterday, I felt the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life. . .all day long! I couldn't move, including turning over onto my back. I was stuck in my apartment on my stomach. Talk about scary. It took me until 4 to make it from bed to living room to undo the latch on the door for Warm Boyfriend to get inside and then to get my phone so I could text him for help and call my mom. The family brigade came to my rescue. Warm Boyfriend fed me Vicodin laced ice cream and he and mom massaged my leg. Flexeril and Oxycontin arrived with Mom and the drug cocktail kicked in enough so that I could eventually turn over onto my back and work a bit at stretching out my leg. At some point around midnight we managed to get me up to crawling and I slowly made my way to bed. A seriously scary day and I know what it feels like to be in that commercial where the lady calls for help because she's fallen and can't get up. Thank God for my parents and Warm Boyfriend or I would have been alone for who knows how long.
Got another cortisone shot scheduled for Friday morning, so that should take care of things. It seems that shot number one ran it's course and that's why I am in such horrible pain. Obviously, the disk is still healing and the ruptured part is still very much pressing on the sciatic nerve. On a good note, my PT says my leg is much stronger this time around so I am healing well. But I am sad that I only got 6 weeks out of the first shot. We can only do 3 and I would like to be healed up by the time we use up the last one. Also, we will do better to pre-emptively schedule the last one so that this doesn't happen again. I could not do another day like yesterday. I was nearly at the point of considering suicide or cutting off my leg, but I knew it was temporary and help was coming, but if I had to live with that much pain forever. . . I just couldn't do it. I know nothing in my life, babies or otherwise, will hurt as much as this has. Breaking a leg would have been easier.
Got another cortisone shot scheduled for Friday morning, so that should take care of things. It seems that shot number one ran it's course and that's why I am in such horrible pain. Obviously, the disk is still healing and the ruptured part is still very much pressing on the sciatic nerve. On a good note, my PT says my leg is much stronger this time around so I am healing well. But I am sad that I only got 6 weeks out of the first shot. We can only do 3 and I would like to be healed up by the time we use up the last one. Also, we will do better to pre-emptively schedule the last one so that this doesn't happen again. I could not do another day like yesterday. I was nearly at the point of considering suicide or cutting off my leg, but I knew it was temporary and help was coming, but if I had to live with that much pain forever. . . I just couldn't do it. I know nothing in my life, babies or otherwise, will hurt as much as this has. Breaking a leg would have been easier.