Sep 26, 2006 22:20
Well... it's complicated. Life in general I suppose.
It's true that Marlee had opportunities here in Spokane. Lots of them. But so do we all who live here, it's not as though we're going out of our way to take them. And if being in Kooskia is the driving force or the kick in the pants that she needs to take the opportunities that she has there, then that works.
I can't say I'm happy we're not together right now, I still feel like I'm missing a bit of me. But I'll survive. I'm glad I stopped being passive about it, I didn't want her to simply think I accepted it, I'd get over it, and I'd move on if she wanted to leave me. Because I wont. I'll have patience, but I'm not giving up. Ever.
I think that I don't give too much away in saying that Marlee is staying in Kooskia to get her life in order. To figure out how to be happy with who she is, and how to change those things she isn't happy about.
And she's doing it. ^_^ Marlee's figured out how to walk again in life. Slow, clumsy steps, but she's walking again. She needs time, and I can give her that. Support and love, 100%. And with that support, it's what she needs to remember how to fly. Soon enough she'll be free of the emotional cage she's been in for years now. And able to fly again. Once that happens, the only limitation will be what Marlee wants.
God willing, she'll fly back to us. And if the wind carries her elsewhere, we can either be glad we helped someone that wonderful to find her wings again, or we can follow in her trail.
No matter what happens, I support Marlee. I love her and, though she's bringing a lot of borrowed things back on friday, I know my heart will stay with her for a long, long time. I don't regret a thing that I have said or done for her.