second chance
as some of you know, I had a phone interview a few days ago that I think went rather unwell. and I think it was partially because I was sick, and partially because I just didn't care. however badly it went though, I now have an in person interview next thursday. I just need to figure out how to get out of work. I think the main reason I didn't care too much is because the job feels so professional and grown up, and I don't feel like either one of those things, and I also don't feel like becoming either one of those things. Even if I don't have to become those things, I also don't feel like pretending to be those things. My life is so up in the air right now. I'm always on my way somewhere and never seeming to get anywhere. It's hard to be sure of yourself when in this state.