Why?
Ok so I caved and decided that I would let this out in here. I am really feeling this overwhelming feeling of sadness. and I'm afraid to really talk to anyone about it because I don't want people to think that I'm just feeling sorry for myself (because that is not the case at all). I love my husband with all of my heart and soul and I love my children the same there isn't anything I wouldn't do for them. But somehow I feel like I've cheated them, that I haven't been there like I should have been. I havn't always been the mother that they deserve (not as far as I'm concerned any way). There are some other things that are just really getting to me still. I am full of so much pain and regret and guilt and shame because of things that have happened or things that I myself have done to others. Also Recently I have come down with Mono and that is just making me feel so much worse. Because now I'm having trouble keeping up with the day to day...... I just want to feel good again. I want to be happy again.....someone please help.