I think it's a good level
Are best friends really needed much at all?
i mean, i've learned very nicely from the past that it doesn't matter how close you are to someone because if you get mad or show an opinion that is unlike theirs, you will be put down and hated by all. People who call themselves the good friends are the ones dragging your name through the dirt trying to get as many people as possible to hate you and then when confronted with it, still try to play the victim in the whole thing.
Personally they can have that victim role. i don't mind it.
But i love how those who once called me their friend could so easily believe so bad of me. It opens your eyes to how crappy of friends they really are. Once again this is my opinion.
No i am not just referring to Jaki crud or whatever. This is thoughts on how most friendships go anyway. i've moved past those friendships and honestly, am doing my best to forget them. If they treasured anything then they wouldn't do what most of them do so why should i bother remembering any of it?
So of course i shouldn't being saying any of this because of the "drama" it will cause but honestly, if it bothers anyone or even offends, then don't freaking read it! i keep myself from writing most of the time because of comments and crap i go through for my opinions so i cleared my friendlist of people who made me feel like crap and basically who AREN'T my friends or even acquaintances.It doesn't even matter who is on my friendlist or not because i make all the entries i write now, public. i will not let myself be centered anymore.
i never did that with Amy because i didn't get so mad at her that i didn't even want to remember the friendship because i still smiled when remembering memories from that past. Plus Amy didn't try to get every party involved and never made me feel censored.
i'm tired of feeling censored and so why should i have to be and i'm not going to do it anymore.
Yes i hated Amy at one time so i ignored her to basically keep peace and to keep us from actually fist fighting(and she would actually do it too not like other beach girls who talk a lot of crap but are little cowards about it in person)
To push me to the point where i regret everything is bad and i don't ignore those people because i'm keeping myself from pounding their face in but because i don't know who they are anymore so they're strangers to me that i don't have an interest talking to because i have a bad vibe about so i don't really want to get to know them.
i love the friends i do have but i have no intention with making anymore best friends. Every time someone gets the title of best friend, they go freaking nuts and it makes me feel like i'm in another relationship other than with my boyfriend and so then i feel trapped.
i couldn't care less about what anyone thinks about me because you know what? Just because someone listened to one side of the story of anything doesn't mean they have all the info. Sure i get asked about what's my side but you know what? i don't think it needs to go farther than between me and that ex-friend.
i don't need the mob-mentality to feel secure. Are they bad friends in general. No, didn't say that. They were a bad friend to me and that's it. Once again, opinion thing again. Done now. No more censorship and it feels good.
Ah screw this..private entry no censorship
i mean, i've learned very nicely from the past that it doesn't matter how close you are to someone because if you get mad or show an opinion that is unlike theirs, you will be put down and hated by all. People who call themselves the good friends are the ones dragging your name through the dirt trying to get as many people as possible to hate you and then when confronted with it, still try to play the victim in the whole thing.
Personally they can have that victim role. i don't mind it.
But i love how those who once called me their friend could so easily believe so bad of me. It opens your eyes to how crappy of friends they really are. Once again this is my opinion.
No i am not just referring to Jaki crud or whatever. This is thoughts on how most friendships go anyway. i've moved past those friendships and honestly, am doing my best to forget them. If they treasured anything then they wouldn't do what most of them do so why should i bother remembering any of it?
So of course i shouldn't being saying any of this because of the "drama" it will cause but honestly, if it bothers anyone or even offends, then don't freaking read it! i keep myself from writing most of the time because of comments and crap i go through for my opinions so i cleared my friendlist of people who made me feel like crap and basically who AREN'T my friends or even acquaintances.It doesn't even matter who is on my friendlist or not because i make all the entries i write now, public. i will not let myself be centered anymore.
i never did that with Amy because i didn't get so mad at her that i didn't even want to remember the friendship because i still smiled when remembering memories from that past. Plus Amy didn't try to get every party involved and never made me feel censored.
i'm tired of feeling censored and so why should i have to be and i'm not going to do it anymore.
Yes i hated Amy at one time so i ignored her to basically keep peace and to keep us from actually fist fighting(and she would actually do it too not like other beach girls who talk a lot of crap but are little cowards about it in person)
To push me to the point where i regret everything is bad and i don't ignore those people because i'm keeping myself from pounding their face in but because i don't know who they are anymore so they're strangers to me that i don't have an interest talking to because i have a bad vibe about so i don't really want to get to know them.
i love the friends i do have but i have no intention with making anymore best friends. Every time someone gets the title of best friend, they go freaking nuts and it makes me feel like i'm in another relationship other than with my boyfriend and so then i feel trapped.
i couldn't care less about what anyone thinks about me because you know what? Just because someone listened to one side of the story of anything doesn't mean they have all the info. Sure i get asked about what's my side but you know what? i don't think it needs to go farther than between me and that ex-friend.
i don't need the mob-mentality to feel secure. Are they bad friends in general. No, didn't say that. They were a bad friend to me and that's it. Once again, opinion thing again. Done now. No more censorship and it feels good.
Ah screw this..private entry no censorship