the cake speaks truth
There's this guy on myspace that insists on posting numerous bulletin entries, letting everyone know that today is his birthday (as if myspace doesn't display that by default). It probably wouldn't bother me as much if many observations didn't point to the conclusion that he basically thinks he's "the shit."
Now that that's said, I begin to look at the other side. The side that questions, "Why am I wasting my time posting this entry? Why do I have to announce to everyone that there's a guy on myspace announcing to everyone? Why do I judge him instead of accept him?"
There's usually never a moment when I'm not completely double-sided in my being. I'd be lying to myself if I didn't see and accept the fact that this guy annoys me with his actions. Despite believing that accepting him without judgment would be a better route, the annoyance remains.
Perhaps I'm not judging him at all (I'd like to think that). Maybe I simply don't agree with him, and what's true for him isn't true for me. Boasting about his B-day annoys me so it's something I choose not to do (which is ironic, beings that I'm writing this entry very close to my B-day.. but it definitely was not my intentions).
Should I thank him? By assisting me to see what I don't agree with, he has helped me to realize more of what I do agree with.
Or, could it be that I don't like him because he reminds me of me? Do I like attention? Do I crave attention? Do I want myself to be seen, but go about it in not-so-obvious ways? That doesn't make too much sense for a guy who spends all day every day in the corner of his room. Maybe I don't feel deserving of attention? Ah, my good friend, "not good enough." The possibilities are endless, and my brain insists on going through as many of them as it can.
I spend all day behind a screen. It can be looked at both ways.
Now that that's said, I begin to look at the other side. The side that questions, "Why am I wasting my time posting this entry? Why do I have to announce to everyone that there's a guy on myspace announcing to everyone? Why do I judge him instead of accept him?"
There's usually never a moment when I'm not completely double-sided in my being. I'd be lying to myself if I didn't see and accept the fact that this guy annoys me with his actions. Despite believing that accepting him without judgment would be a better route, the annoyance remains.
Perhaps I'm not judging him at all (I'd like to think that). Maybe I simply don't agree with him, and what's true for him isn't true for me. Boasting about his B-day annoys me so it's something I choose not to do (which is ironic, beings that I'm writing this entry very close to my B-day.. but it definitely was not my intentions).
Should I thank him? By assisting me to see what I don't agree with, he has helped me to realize more of what I do agree with.
Or, could it be that I don't like him because he reminds me of me? Do I like attention? Do I crave attention? Do I want myself to be seen, but go about it in not-so-obvious ways? That doesn't make too much sense for a guy who spends all day every day in the corner of his room. Maybe I don't feel deserving of attention? Ah, my good friend, "not good enough." The possibilities are endless, and my brain insists on going through as many of them as it can.
I spend all day behind a screen. It can be looked at both ways.