Was going to be an update but ended up being about Merlin instead. But with pictures!
Wow. It's almost Christmas. Like for real. When did that happen?
I interviewed for the new position at work but I won't hear back until after the holidays so we shall see.
Other than that, I've just been sucked back into Merlin fandom pretty strongly. Mostly on Tumblr. In fact, I have so many feels about everything, I wouldn't even know where to begin. I can't believe tomorrow is the last ever episode. I know things have to end eventually but I feel like this was a) very sudden (we found out with only 5 eps left) and b) I'm not sure I trust the writers to end the show the way it deserves. I watched the first half of the finale yesterday and I cried. A lot. The weird part was that I couldn't sleep that night. I went to sleep around 11pm and woke up 4am. I had a dream where Merlin was either reincarnated or immortal but he had amnesia and I woke up crying. After that, I was wide awake and after failing for about an hour to go back to sleep, even went online for a bit. The last time I was this upset was after Reichenbach. Although the Ponds leaving broke my heart as well. Oh JFC now I'm making myself depressed all over again.
I watched these characters grow up so much and all I want is for them to be happy. I feel physically sick just thinking about what might happen. It's actually ending right now but I have to wait for it to be available after it airs. I tried watching a live stream once and it was so glitchy it took me out of the episode. Did not want that for the finale.
This is how I've set myself up to watch the finale:
I made Merlin (and Arthur) cookies.
Work gave us mini iPads for Christmas and I Merlinized mine. I also named it Merlin.
I painted my nails red and gold for Camelot.
I'm wearing my Merthur shirt in preparation.
I also have tissues, I've been listening to depressing music, I have my Merlin and Arthur action figures with me, and my Pendragon case is on my phone. In other words, I am so not ready for this.
I interviewed for the new position at work but I won't hear back until after the holidays so we shall see.
Other than that, I've just been sucked back into Merlin fandom pretty strongly. Mostly on Tumblr. In fact, I have so many feels about everything, I wouldn't even know where to begin. I can't believe tomorrow is the last ever episode. I know things have to end eventually but I feel like this was a) very sudden (we found out with only 5 eps left) and b) I'm not sure I trust the writers to end the show the way it deserves. I watched the first half of the finale yesterday and I cried. A lot. The weird part was that I couldn't sleep that night. I went to sleep around 11pm and woke up 4am. I had a dream where Merlin was either reincarnated or immortal but he had amnesia and I woke up crying. After that, I was wide awake and after failing for about an hour to go back to sleep, even went online for a bit. The last time I was this upset was after Reichenbach. Although the Ponds leaving broke my heart as well. Oh JFC now I'm making myself depressed all over again.
I watched these characters grow up so much and all I want is for them to be happy. I feel physically sick just thinking about what might happen. It's actually ending right now but I have to wait for it to be available after it airs. I tried watching a live stream once and it was so glitchy it took me out of the episode. Did not want that for the finale.
This is how I've set myself up to watch the finale:
I made Merlin (and Arthur) cookies.
Work gave us mini iPads for Christmas and I Merlinized mine. I also named it Merlin.
I painted my nails red and gold for Camelot.
I'm wearing my Merthur shirt in preparation.
I also have tissues, I've been listening to depressing music, I have my Merlin and Arthur action figures with me, and my Pendragon case is on my phone. In other words, I am so not ready for this.