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There's something to be said about starting someplace else, someplace new.
It's crazy, chaotic and...scary. I've gotten complacent, been too lax, took my time and now I find it hard to severe all that were supposed to be temporary. I let my guard down. No one to blame but myself.
Things are piling up faster than I anticipated, and now I think I'm getting sucked into this black hole with no chance of getting out. If only I'm not too late.
* * * * *
I fear I'm about to lose someone...close to me. Sonofa--even now it's hard to say the words aloud. It seems all I can do in the meantime is count the time left.
I hate how I feel. I hate how I think I'm too late. She never even really said a thing. For two years she kept it a secret, merely throwing me hints about how she wishes I could be there with her while I could. It should have been "while she could."
Cancer dammit.
I don't handle loss very well.
I'm sorry.
It's crazy, chaotic and...scary. I've gotten complacent, been too lax, took my time and now I find it hard to severe all that were supposed to be temporary. I let my guard down. No one to blame but myself.
Things are piling up faster than I anticipated, and now I think I'm getting sucked into this black hole with no chance of getting out. If only I'm not too late.
* * * * *
I fear I'm about to lose someone...close to me. Sonofa--even now it's hard to say the words aloud. It seems all I can do in the meantime is count the time left.
I hate how I feel. I hate how I think I'm too late. She never even really said a thing. For two years she kept it a secret, merely throwing me hints about how she wishes I could be there with her while I could. It should have been "while she could."
Cancer dammit.
I don't handle loss very well.
I'm sorry.