is it everything you dreamed it would be/when the world was younger, and you had everything to lose?
I ACED MY FINAL TWO TESTS!!!
fuck yes. i passed my first quizzes with a 96% and a 95%, and then came in today to take my server test and the menu final.
server test: 104% (due to extra credit questions)
menu final: 98%
hells yeah. now tomorrow is the nerve-wracking day i take the orders while a fellow server watches me. ryan said it most likely will be eric again, so that should be a trip. i'm really nervous about it, even if i really do have nothing to worry about.
other than the tests, my day was awesome. David asked me to call him when i got out of testing, and when i did i told him i was going to stay and eat. he wasn't going to come down, but as i put my order in he called and asked if he had enough time to join me. we had a good meal joked about asking Gail to marry him (he asked, she laughed and said, "yeah sure"), and ended up going back to his place to watch his bootleg-version of "Batman Begins". pretty damned decent movie, even in bootleg form. after the movie, around 10:30, he disappears into his room and emerges with his swim suit on, asking if i was ready to be thrown in the lake. he didn't throw me in, but the water was so warm i sat with my legs dangling the whole time he dove in and swam around. he succeeded in soaking me through all my clothes though, by purposefuly doing a cannonball next to me, trying (and nearly succeeding) in pulling me in, and continually throwing water in my face. it kinda made me want to dive in and drown him, but it was still fun.
when David went home to go to sleep, i called up Alex to see if he still wanted to hang out a little. he did, and we ended up driving to Steak n Shake for some munchies, listening to a new band he wanted me to hear. pretty good, for the type of music it is. it kind of sounded Frank Zappa-y, and had violin and awesome drums/bass lines. Alex and i talked about a lot of stuff: school, the job hunt (him), the newer job (me), training, graduating, religion, relationships and our lack therofs, david, friends, romantic possibilities (on both ends), and just regular stuff for me and him. it was great getting to see him again, since he hasn't been up from Bloomington for a while. when i drove him home, i made a quick detour to our Flash Park for some solitude, collection of my nerves, and semi-star gazing. the moon is too bright tonight to see anything.
i'm so nervous about tomorrow......................and i don't honestly know why. i aced the tests, i know the menu well enough to advise entrees and answer questions, and i'm sure i'll be fine on finding the items in the computer, doing my sidework, etc. it just..................i'm afraid i'll fuck up. my hands are so cold because of my nerves i can hardly type........
i'm sure i'll be just fine..................................
i will be fine................
..............................right?
meg
P.S.: Daniel called me today, during my tests, and began his message with "Hey beautiful.........." teehee.