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i'm getting a new puppy.
frank + i broke up. we still communicate but we seem to be on the verge of never seeing or speaking to each other ever again. four years almost . i guess we had a good run of it all
but all he's wanted me to have so much responsibility like moving out, getting a place of our own, and me working a lot more than i am now. plus we aren't right for each other. materialistically we have nothing in common- the clothes we buy, the music we listen to, video games we play, even movies. i'd say our values are the same and thats what we could agree upon, but they aren't. he wants to have a kid now, no marrage or ring. how could he want to have a kid with me before he gets his own life together and mine.
emotionally he has no time to spend with me. just work and sleep. and i sit here thinking of all the days of fun and laughs i could be having. all the bundles of things i could be doing when i am watching him sleep our time away.
i still want to see whats out there. meet new people. whatever. i still really don't know what i want to do in my life. i thought i did, but we girls always change our minds. speaking of, at school the other day this pbf i forget her name, she said i was the "whitest" black girl she had ever seen.
i don't know what she meant by that. but okay!
i had a sleep over at amy's wednesday. it was fun we played monopoly and i got to meet scooby and amy's neice anya may, she's 4mo old.
frank + i broke up. we still communicate but we seem to be on the verge of never seeing or speaking to each other ever again. four years almost . i guess we had a good run of it all
but all he's wanted me to have so much responsibility like moving out, getting a place of our own, and me working a lot more than i am now. plus we aren't right for each other. materialistically we have nothing in common- the clothes we buy, the music we listen to, video games we play, even movies. i'd say our values are the same and thats what we could agree upon, but they aren't. he wants to have a kid now, no marrage or ring. how could he want to have a kid with me before he gets his own life together and mine.
emotionally he has no time to spend with me. just work and sleep. and i sit here thinking of all the days of fun and laughs i could be having. all the bundles of things i could be doing when i am watching him sleep our time away.
i still want to see whats out there. meet new people. whatever. i still really don't know what i want to do in my life. i thought i did, but we girls always change our minds. speaking of, at school the other day this pbf i forget her name, she said i was the "whitest" black girl she had ever seen.
i don't know what she meant by that. but okay!
i had a sleep over at amy's wednesday. it was fun we played monopoly and i got to meet scooby and amy's neice anya may, she's 4mo old.