May 06, 2014 18:12
I've been in England for 19 months now. And right now I sort of feel like I've wasted the opportunity.
Today I'm stressing over money. Credit Card debt, student loans and wondering if I'll be able to afford a flight back. I want to come back so bad. I'm going home in October but Sharon wants me to come back, and I love love love Guildford, but once I'm home I'm worried I'll get swallowed by the lack of money and just end up staying in NZ.
I need to save my butt off. But I'm supposed to be going to Turkey in September, which is hella expensive. I feel like I should forgo that trip so I will have the funds, but if I do and then don't come back I'll kick myself. It's almost £700 though!
I'm going to glasto again, but that doesn't make me feel guilty because I'm volunteering so I'll get my £350 back. That's like 1/2 my flight.
Boo stress.
I could feasibly save the money I need, but I'd have no life, I'd not be able to travel, I'd probably be miserable.
I don't know what to dooooo!