I'm far too unstable to settle
So let me give you a list of what I do know:
-My family is amazing
-I have some of the best friends in the world
-3 hours at Steak n' Shake can be the best way to spend the time
-I am completely in love with my boyfriend
-I love Jesus with all that is with in me
-Reel Big Fish is still my favorite band after 9 years
and now what I don't know:
-Where home is
-Where I'll be living in a month
-What I want to do with my life
-How to figure out what I want out of life
-How I'm going to get back into school
-Where I want to graduate from college
-How to be responsible for my own happiness
Ugh, when did I become so forlorn? Moreover how is it that am completely satisfied yet so utterly dissatisfied with my current circumstances? I need a break or a holiday or I don't know, something. Anything. I need to find some sort of peace and not be completely torn as I am. Fuck, if I feel this way at 20, how is it going to be for the rest of my life? I just don't know anymore kids. I just don't know, but I'm sure everything will work out the way it's supposed to. And please don't tell me otherwise, that's the hope that gets me through the day.
-My family is amazing
-I have some of the best friends in the world
-3 hours at Steak n' Shake can be the best way to spend the time
-I am completely in love with my boyfriend
-I love Jesus with all that is with in me
-Reel Big Fish is still my favorite band after 9 years
and now what I don't know:
-Where home is
-Where I'll be living in a month
-What I want to do with my life
-How to figure out what I want out of life
-How I'm going to get back into school
-Where I want to graduate from college
-How to be responsible for my own happiness
Ugh, when did I become so forlorn? Moreover how is it that am completely satisfied yet so utterly dissatisfied with my current circumstances? I need a break or a holiday or I don't know, something. Anything. I need to find some sort of peace and not be completely torn as I am. Fuck, if I feel this way at 20, how is it going to be for the rest of my life? I just don't know anymore kids. I just don't know, but I'm sure everything will work out the way it's supposed to. And please don't tell me otherwise, that's the hope that gets me through the day.