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ok, so i am smashed.4 shared martini's, two liquid cocaines, and working on a 40 of triple black. typing is quite difficult. Today was shoulderless Billy's funeral. tiki, kiki, and i were very upset about the service. poor Billy. I just hope that his problems truly are resolved and that he knows how many people care about him. it's hard to think about it really. i'm a bit overwhelmed. very drunk, and very contemplative. darkness/night/shadow= where "the sun is speechless" according to Dante. i'm very happy to have read that, it's just such a great expression. sleeping is giving in. V4! lindsey= eternally questioning. i never stop thinking about what else i could do to live better tomorrow. i miss having a purpose. i wish i had someone to make me feel better, but that wouldn't be a logical solution. i feel very empty or lacking as of late. but i'm very very drunk and shouldnt be ranting on livejournal. dont want to be a loser. i do wish somebody loved me though....