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in catching up from that last post things are fine i am fine everything is fine. I think conclusion is i have a problem i cant be happy with myself unless someone of the opposite sex is showing interst in me, i hate i am this way because it is a terrible way to live life and this i know but im trying to change and grow and trying to love who i am not matter if some guy likes me or not i cant do this i cant base my life around that anymore. I went a little crazy this year and got myself in some Holy shit i should be dead (little overeggareted) but im not im still breathing i still wake up every morning my heart is still pumping i am still alive and for once in a long time i am happy so incredibly happy to be alive and be living, And i guess thats my wrap up on my life right now or as much as a choose to write on a site where more then one person knows whats going on. :)