stupid tristen, alcool is for grownups
like always I have another fit of depression
I am just tired of worrying about everything and I still really want to go home.
Basiclly this all boils down to me not being able to manage my money. I made a list of what to do to not spend money but I tottally didnt follow it. It is just whenever I have any I spend it, not always in bad ways it is just that I am way to impulsive for my own good. Like for instance, I have no free money for Dublin, like i wont have money for food ect. so I made a plan to not spend any so I could take like 20-30€ with me....
Well last night was valentines and well first thing I do was buy 10€ worth of flowers for my friend who was really depressed. Well, I couldn't afford it but the look of joy she had on her face when she got them was well worth it.
After that I went to this kids birthday, he isnt in my program and he really isnt the type of person I would call my freind but it was his 21st bday and it was in france. So he invited me out and after a while all of his 'friends' left, as I thought they would and so I took him out dancing till 4 am in the morning. He had alot of fun and was able to do what he wanted to do on his birthday....but now I am down another 20€....
thus is the reason that tristen has nothing right now and can't even afford to eat anything but peanut butter...
at least it was for good causes....maybe if I keep telling myself this I will magicly get a tofu burger...yum...tofu
I am just tired of worrying about everything and I still really want to go home.
Basiclly this all boils down to me not being able to manage my money. I made a list of what to do to not spend money but I tottally didnt follow it. It is just whenever I have any I spend it, not always in bad ways it is just that I am way to impulsive for my own good. Like for instance, I have no free money for Dublin, like i wont have money for food ect. so I made a plan to not spend any so I could take like 20-30€ with me....
Well last night was valentines and well first thing I do was buy 10€ worth of flowers for my friend who was really depressed. Well, I couldn't afford it but the look of joy she had on her face when she got them was well worth it.
After that I went to this kids birthday, he isnt in my program and he really isnt the type of person I would call my freind but it was his 21st bday and it was in france. So he invited me out and after a while all of his 'friends' left, as I thought they would and so I took him out dancing till 4 am in the morning. He had alot of fun and was able to do what he wanted to do on his birthday....but now I am down another 20€....
thus is the reason that tristen has nothing right now and can't even afford to eat anything but peanut butter...
at least it was for good causes....maybe if I keep telling myself this I will magicly get a tofu burger...yum...tofu