do i even have to say it...
i swear no matter what i do its always a let down i mean seriously regardless of what i decide to do with my time its a let down its like bad luck tends to follow me and it sucks. called into work for a show that didn't happen cause the cops show up, get a ticket, and girl that i have been talking to decides because she has a boyfriend we can't even hang out, apparently i even give up on making new friends to much of a loser even for that. ended up waiting around for like 3 hours before we even go any place then go to a party at tickners that is just hot and smokey as usual so i just said screw it before this night gets any worse i'm leaving and i did without even telling anyone doubtful anybody even noticed. drove around for a bit and drove by the thruway and i so just wanted to hop on and drive away just say screw it i'm done with syracuse but i can't cause i have no money and a lousy job and i wouldn't make it far enough away to be happy, syracuse is this big black hole that you cannot escape cause it wants to do nothing but make you unhappy least thats the way i see it. i just wanna give up maybe i already have and thats why everything seems so bad why is it everytime you think things can't get worse they do....