Mar 18, 2005 00:56
So i havent written in here in a long time, since valentins day i guess. Since i havenet written its time for un upadate:
a) i wrote a goodbye email to him, finally, its over. Nothing has happened after that so thats good...as i have learned you cant run away, you have to face things head on and thats what he did, he ran away. Whatever, im over it or at least i will be, stupid emotional problems. Anyyywaayy we wont get into that.
b) lets see im on spring break. I got my essay first part for my art project written (not good but written), i began my india essay... MY MOM FINALLY GAVE IN!!! THANKS DADDY!! well i cant be mad at him forever can i? i was mad at my dad for a while, which i am still ticked off about because i told him about how he never comes to baltimore right? and he tells me because he never gets meetings over there so its hard for him to come over here. then he calls me a couple of days later and hes like hey im trying to arrange a meeting in baltimore. cool rihgt? i was excited, he though i complained didnt necessarily have to do that. But guess this, he goes well i didnt want u think that he loved my sister more than me and i was like oh i didnt think that, but i was only being annoying and just you know being annoying. he goes i know u were being annoying. and im sitting here thinking...so ur only going to come to baltimore because it was annoying that i complained and ur trying to make me happy and to make sure u cover ur butt to make me think u dont love my sister more than me?
well fisrt of all i never thought that. let me just make that clear. however, my sister is becoming the doctor, which makes u spend more time wtih her because u can bring her around ur circles more than me. i however, am not connected to anyone for you or mother so its harder. So thanks dad, for coming only because i complained, and wanted me off ur back. thanks appreciate the love really do.
but of course then he goes ahead and says he really likes the india trip. there is alot of things my dad is said to me that have really been able to make me get there my wonderful years of the past. (not that my mom hasnt been there for me its just they both have different tactics or something, whatever...on with the dad), its just sometimes there are things that he does that are just jerky. i think he makes up for it for certain things, but its just aggrivating. no one is perfect i get that. gggrrrr, and what annoys me even more is that i wont even see my father until two hours before i have to go on a plane back to school. long enough for him to bring me to the airport. GREAT! and i didnt know he was traveling when we talked about it he made it seem like he was going while i was in school because i wanted to go with him and hes like well i would of wanted you to come with me..cause i caught him, he knew he told me the wrong time. i especially loved the part where i told him how he never comes to baltimore when he said that i would see him over spring break, passover and when i come home for summer. That part was just magnific! Even now that my dad is home, i never really get to see him alot cause hes traveling again. when i was little i would only see him like 20 days out of the year. it really sucked. i guess that this why i want to travel so much, because i always thought that i would go everywhere he went and eventually i would meet up with him somewhere on his travels since i would be there too. What a dream right? travel around the world so u eventually would find ur dad? or follow him on his travels? or better yet, see what he has seen after all the trinkets and tshirts hes brought back.
ok now that i just pored my heart out on some of that sob story we are going to move on now....um im renting movies, catching myself up on things. lets see got myself a jacket!!! im sooooo excited for my trip to europe. i read the packet i have to write a reserach paper but wharever its worth it. my parents said i woudl probably could end up using their camera!! which is great!!! because mine is like from the seventh grade(i got it for my bat mitzvah)hahaha and im finally getting italy. i cant even remember how long its been since ive wanted to go there. plus i get to see other places ive wanted to see. But, i have to say im sad im not going to prague i loved that place. IF ANYONE HAS A CHANCE THEY SHOULD GO THERE!! its awesome!!! i have to get back there. well after i graduate. im hoping that i like where im going because i really want to work in europe. i want to work in museums there, dig up artifacts and learn the history on them. gosh im a dork. in all honesty, im excited about digging things up and learning about them. wow, my mom calls me mrs. indiana jones or something like that when i told her on the phone, i was like um, right. like i could use a whip. could any of u really see me succesfully use a whip? i think i would hit myself before anyone else....ahahaha...here she comes to dig up old things!!!
oh well off to bed so i can get up early to go learn about the freedom trail for my historic preservation project. NITE GUYS!